Monday, May 06, 2013
I have quit smoking a thousand times. It is staying a non smoker that gets to me each time. I have it so impounded in my head that I need those cigarettes to handle daily stresses or life in general. But recently my mouth has decided that it is going to give me a great big forceful push in quitting.
I quit for 9 months in 2011. For some reason it was really easy for me. I quit cold turkey and just hung out the withdrawals. But after 9 months of quitting, suddenly I was thrown into my last year of college, which were my legal courses and the worst courses yet. I was struggling big time and a lot of the other students smoked, so I made that fatal choice of having one and then another. Before you knew it I was a full blown smoker again.
I made a promise to myself, the minute I was done with school, I would set a quit date. So I did and I would do good for 3 days before falling off the wagon again. Those first 3-4 days are the hardest for me, any little thing can set me off and back to smoking.
Last week my mouth started hurting. The roof and gums started off lightly throbbing that turned into full blown pain within a day. By Friday I was scared and miserable. I was barely eating, I was cranky and I was exhausted. So I made an emergency dental appointment.
My gums were hurting so bad that by the time they took my blood pressure (right before the x-rays, didn't know they did that now), it was through the roof. I was feeling sick to my stomach like I was going to puke. The pain was horrible with no relief from the Alleve I had taken.
The dentist let me know that besides a few really shallow cavities, my gums/roof of mouth/tongue didn't look that swollen. Just a little swelling, nothing major or worrisome. She suggested I come back to get cleaned and my cavities filled but that there was nothing visible that she could see causing the pain. She did mention though that caffiene and nicotine could both dry out your mouth, causing pain and after long term it could cause damage.
So I went home and quit. I had already drank coffee but I hadn't smoked so I just didn't. Truthfully the pain was overriding any want to anyways. By Saturday the pain eased up. By Sunday it was gone. So when I picked up the phone on Sunday and slipped up with 2 cigarettes (the phone is one of my BIGGEST triggers) I was frustrated to have the mouth pain instantly return. Today I am still dealing with it. Not as extreme as it was on Friday but there none the less. Looks like for sure nicotine is the culprit.
So in order to avoid the pain because I hate mouth pain, I am done, DONE. Looks like my biggest motivator will be my body simply letting me know it can not handle it anymore!
Today I am back to quitting. I have nicotine gum for the bad days and lots of dried fruit/jerky for snacks. Which reminds me, I also FINALLY purchased a dehydrator in order to make my own healthy low carb snacks now. It has been a BLAST playing around with it all weekend.
Got any suggestions for quitting smoking?
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