Baby Steps, a family rebuilding

Monday, May 06, 2013

Yesterday, after fifteen months, we had a family dinner. I had not seen my son since Christmas 2011. We had a disagreement. Both of us stubborn as a mule, I finally wrote him a letter at the beginning of April. A couple of weeks later he called me. We agreed to have a family dinner, per his request. What we disagreed upon, we would not discuss, just move forward.

Along with the tension between us, my daughter and MIL were on the outs too. They too dropped their outs. We all had a civil dinner at a restaurant.

My son is 23 and my daughter is 19 (almost 20).

This is an important milestone in my weight loss journey and mental health recovery. The added stress of a family dissolved has made me suffer from mindless eating. A slow self destruction. Lack of sleep and anxiety have been prevelant in recent weeks. I have gotten back up to 160 pounds. Today that stops! This is me 160 pounds.

Last week, I went to the new doctor. She added and increased medications. I have not gotten them filled yet. Things I dread about them: cost ($600 month) and side effects...I will feel like a zombie. Damned if I do, damned if I don't.

Today, I am going to try to build my recovery program. What is on my recovery list?
1. weight gain
2. rebuilding family (depression)
3. anxiety
4. work (increase income)

So now, I am going to put the wheels in motion. So everyone, have a momentous Monday. I have a plan to create. I love my Spark family!!! emoticon
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  • GABY1948
    Try not to think on each thing so much...relax and let life happen. I have been where you are and it is not worth it. You can't change anything by worrying OR eating! Bless your heart for getting all involved back together! Keep up the positives! emoticon
    1774 days ago
    I hope all works out for you, I know about the family falling apart, My siblings (2 sister's and 2 brother's) have not all been in the same room since the early 70's. even when my mom and dad died not all of us showed up, only me and my sister did. my older sister passed about 8 years ago and the clock is running out for us to reconcile our differences..I wish you all the compassion and hope that you can recover what looked like it was lost....good luck my friend..
    1774 days ago
    Calm down and put one foot in front of the other. Work on weight first and the rest wil follow. emoticon
    1775 days ago
  • MISSB8604
    I am beyond happy that things are beginning to improve for you, you certainly deserve it. You can do this, I believe in you.
    1775 days ago
  • RFJSJ50
    How wonderful that your family is coming back together.
    You should be very proud of yourself for taking the first step to make this happen.
    You and your loved ones are in my prayers.
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    1775 days ago
    That is so awesome! That must have felt like a boulder being lifted off of your shoulders. I had to tell myself something yesterday as I screamed at my fiance over something completely mundane: Being right isn't worth him feeling bad. So when you are upset, ask yourself what is the cost of being right? Usually, the cost to benefit ratio is pretty low.

    I must say that I think you look good in the pic at 160 (other than the grimace on your face). And I like your hair longer. I just wish you the best and hope that you and your family continue to come together.
    1775 days ago
    I'm so happy you were all able to put the past behind you and have a nice meal together. It's a great start!

    I wish you all the luck in the world!
    1775 days ago
    Oh, definitely, your relationship with your family is so important! I have 5 children, and can honestly tell you that they disagree with me on so many things. I had to make the decision that when we disagree on something, instead of a big fight, I stop, tell them let's just agree that we disagree and drop it. It has helped tremendously. At 160, I think you are beautiful! I would love to be at 160, but I have 20 pounds on you! Just to see that picture of you at 160 is exciting to me to think I might look as good as you soon! I also made the decision to stop belittling myself and degrading myself; it is so hard to love ourselves, isn't it?! There is nothing that we can accomplish by worrying (except give us an ulcer), we just need to offer it up to God and trust him (the hardest thing to do!) that he has a plan for all of us and that he is in control.
    1775 days ago
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