Monday, May 06, 2013
Yesterday, after fifteen months, we had a family dinner. I had not seen my son since Christmas 2011. We had a disagreement. Both of us stubborn as a mule, I finally wrote him a letter at the beginning of April. A couple of weeks later he called me. We agreed to have a family dinner, per his request. What we disagreed upon, we would not discuss, just move forward.
Along with the tension between us, my daughter and MIL were on the outs too. They too dropped their outs. We all had a civil dinner at a restaurant.
My son is 23 and my daughter is 19 (almost 20).
This is an important milestone in my weight loss journey and mental health recovery. The added stress of a family dissolved has made me suffer from mindless eating. A slow self destruction. Lack of sleep and anxiety have been prevelant in recent weeks. I have gotten back up to 160 pounds. Today that stops! This is me yesterday...at 160 pounds.
Last week, I went to the new doctor. She added and increased medications. I have not gotten them filled yet. Things I dread about them: cost ($600 month) and side effects...I will feel like a zombie. Damned if I do, damned if I don't.
Today, I am going to try to build my recovery program. What is on my recovery list?
1. weight gain
2. rebuilding family (depression)
4. work (increase income)
So now, I am going to put the wheels in motion. So everyone, have a momentous Monday. I have a plan to create. I love my Spark family!!!