Monday, May 06, 2013
Okay, i have completely lost sight of what i wanted to accomplish and i have been very very bad. The results of my fall is that i gained back 7 pounds and this morning i mustered the strength to get back on the scale. My first thoughts were "are you really surprise", and my second was "I'm still under 230". Now i need to PUSH THAT MOUNTAIN OUT OF MY WAY!!! I'm stuck in a Valley and i want to see the ocean and the beaches!! I can not lose hope and give up when i'm faced with challenges. That is my problem, i give up!! I think losing 80 pounds is impossible, but at the same time i know you can. I'm confusing myself, i need to push all the negative thoughts out of my head. I need to dig deeper than i've ever dug before, and i need to really learn to BELIEVE that i am worthy to be happy and to be healthy. I'm barely hanging in there, but i don't want to give up. Today is day 1. not looking back only forward!