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Monday, May 06, 2013

...layer of stress.

My windshield cracked.
Jury's out on whether it was the heat, the hail the other night, a rock...idk. But it's definitely wider than a dollar bill, definitely unavoidable, and -most importantly- definitely not going to be covered by my insurance. Not the least bit. Estimated repair cost? $300. Motivation to pay said repair cost? Cops will pull me over and ticket me (which I DO NOT need right now), and then there's, y'know...death and/or serious injury.

So, this 3-paycheck 'maybe-I-can-catch-up-just-may
be' month just got shot to hell. It's like the universe can't resist delivering swift kicks to the kidneys while I'm already on the ground. It's so hard to keep standing up and staying strong...some days (like last night), you just want to go blank for awhile...maybe sleep, maybe just stare into space and just...exist without thought for awhile. I'm trying not to fall into that. But....UGH. At this point, I'm almost loathe to turn on the exercise equipment and run up the electric bill!! I know, that means I should go outside for a run or something. I should, I know. But the past few days, I won't lie, I've done the bare minimum to keep life going. Low-maintenance meals, washing and folding the laundry but not putting it away, spot cleaning rather than actually cleaning... I just feel so damn tired. I'm sure my TOM is not helping in the least bit.

The Food Stamps ppl requested my last four pay stubs, and I'm working on that...the hitch being that they want them by the 10th, and I've only got my last two (from new bank), and previous bank never did send me my pay stubs in the mail, so I've got to get in touch with the Food Stamps ppl and be like 'hey, my previous job was run by total d-bags, would my last two suffice?'
God, I hope... *fingers crossed*

Better news--I get to go back to NJ and visit my family and walk in my commencement ceremony and see my friends... 18th-26th of May. And I took personal days, so I'll still get a paycheck. Thank god for this company...
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    Sorry to hear about the cracked windshield. That sucks. Hoping you get some good news soon to perk you up. Hang in there. Usually, getting paystubs is not too difficult if you can just get ahold of the employer and request a print-out. (I work as a Rep Payee and we're always having to get pay information for Social Security and JFS for our clients.) As for the what you can do...just keep doing "one thing" more and it will get you going and keep you going. I'm surprised when I intend to just do one thing...but then it leads to do another thing and another and before I know it, I've done way more than I set out to do. Keep up the good work! Glad you are getting to do a homecoming trip. Enjoy! Spark on! emoticon
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    1722 days ago
    Sorry to hear about the windshield.
    Here if there is a crack in the windshield they don't care, I've had one in mine for a few months now and have had no issues. I will replace it eventually, but for now I can still see through it so it is not high priority.
    1723 days ago
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