Todays blog brought to you by rain, dark clouds, dampness and cold!!!
How is ones happy mood supposed to thrive under these conditions?
Where in the hell is Spring?
It sure isnt in Eastern Ky!!! Cold, is an understatement, I have worn sweats and huddled under a blanket for two days.
Zero chance of walking...cant risk a slip on the wet ground on this still healing foot.
At least I hope its healing!
Up early, to more rain....guess I will go grocery shopping today, although I really dont feel like it.
What i really want to do is crawl back into bed and sleep another 5 hours....
Maybe an early bedtime...
So much for getting vitamin d from natural sunlight...I can count on one hand the number of days we have had here so far where you could actually sit outside in the sun.
And those dont include the windy days, wind so bad that any desire to enjoy the sun was ruined and no heat!!!
I am sick sick sick of the cold and darkness.
This weekend, I did nothing, zero, zilch, nada....Sat at home Friday night, sat at home all day Saturday, with the exception of going out for a newspaper, and never left the house all day yesterday.
So, today I am forced to go grocery shopping.
Not that it is going to matter, I am still going to eat like a pig!!!
2 large helpings of spagetti yesterday, with parmasean cheese...
I havent worked out in days, I am starting back on my Wellbutrin this week, which I swore I never would.
But something has to give.
I am sick of always being in a funk and always feeling sick and always feeling angry.
I dont know how it will effect my eating habits, but if I see any signs that it is making me overeat I will stop it again.
I went off all my meds about a year ago or longer, except for zestril for blood pressure and clonidine for blood pressure and to help me sleep.
I stopped Metformin for pcos as I couldnt see one dang thing it was doing for me...I stopped wellbutrin and I stopped the cholesterol pills
and with the exception of more energy and less feelings like I was dragging around a 50 pound wet blanket behnd me...or that I was carrying around a 50 pound cinderblock on my shoulders...I couldnt see one negative effect from stopping these meds.
I became a believer in eating healthy would help more with these issues I had...but now, the depression is getting to be too much.
I think a combo of the broken foot, relationship issues, the bad weather, not losing weight and periomenopause, have brought about this depression.
And since i cannot treat it, by walking, by sitting in the sunlight..or turning back the clock to age 25....I have decided to start back on the wellbutrin...
I will keep the blog going on the results....
But you all just wait, til the day the sun shines continously for a week....I bet ya see a happier sunnier dispostion from me.
I know my blogs have been doom and gloom lately....but I have been in a funk and I cant clim out.
I need to real bad, cause even I miss the old me...
a friend told me recently she misses the old me, I said well, damn I miss the YOUNG ME!!!!