Sunday, May 05, 2013
I already posted that first post, but I decided to go ahead and tell a little more about me.
I'm 18, and I don't remember a time when I was a healthy weight. I know I was skinny when I was really little, like 4 or 5. But right around 8 or 9, I started getting plump, and before I knew it, I'm 18 and over 100 pounds overweight.
I've always felt different. I've always know the 'reason' I was different, but I never really felt like I could do anything about it. Mostly because I suppose I'm more of a 'results now' person, and if something isn't easily obtained, I won't try to obtain it all. It's not worth it.
But THIS is worth it. To be able to find a pair of jeans in less than an hour, and being able to buy shirts from department stores instead of goodwill because the others are too tight and being able to go up a flight of stairs without being out of breath; THESE THINGS ARE WORTH IT.
It's always been a touch and go kinda thing with me. I mean, if you look at my overall diet, you'd think I was a pretty healthy person. I am vegetarian and have been for almost 7 years and I haven't drank soft drinks since January of 2010
But.... For compensation, I started drinking a LOT of sweet tea. It got out of hand and I challenged myself to drink ONLY water for an entire month, to see if I could do it.
And I did. From July 15th, 2011 to August 15th 2011, I drank ONLY water. Not even flavored water or water with drink packets or whatever, pure, regular water.
I was happy, yay, I'd done it, I DID have some will power. But I went cold turkey, and I shouldn't have, because within weeks I was back on excessive caffeine. Now, I'm off caffeine, and I only drink water, fruit juice, and things like fruit punch and hi c and whatnot. But even the latter things need to stop.
I want to be healthy.
I want to be happy.
I don't know how many times I've tried to be healthy and lost weight. But this has to be it. I have to do it this time. I want this more than anything in the world, and I need to stay motivated if I want to accomplish it.
"We change our behavior when the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the pain of changing." Not sure who said this, but it's true. I'm tired of being unhealthy. I'm tired of being unhappy. I'm just tired. So I'm gonna do this. I have to