First off, wanted to say that I fit (snugly) into jeans I haven't worn in ages today. Even about 6 or more months before I got pregnant. Here is a pic since I LOVE taking pics. haha
Ok on to the randomness. haha
It is funny how people automatically tell you about what they eat and why they are doing what they are doing when they notice you have lost weight or a conversation comes up regarding working out or something. I don't even ask people about their diet or excercise and I hear all about it. One of the biggest things I hear is... I am happy being fat right now. I don't have the motivation to do what you are doing. Now.... I used to say this. I used to say I loved my curves (my fat rolls are not sexy curves btw lol) and that I loved eating the way I did and I would be fat and happy the rest of my life. I WAS NOT HAPPY BEING FAT! I still am not happy being overweight. Biggest lie ever. I think people just want others to think they are ok with themselves but we all have been there. It is just something we tell ourselves and others so it seems ok to be unhealthy.
I have realized that I HATE the BMI system. While I do think that it can gauge where you are, I think it is complete and utter crap. lol Yes, I am a big chick. Yes, I am overweight. BUT I am short and have big boobs and that means that the BMI does NOT work in my advantage. Just until this week, I was at a 40+ BMI. I am now 39.2 which means that I am now only Class 2 Obese instead of Class 3 (which is the highest). I am still morbidly obese. MORBID?? Do I look like I am 1000 lbs and that I could die at any second? I hate seeing that term on my charts at the doctor. I was always so awful to see it week after week when I was pregnant. Erghhh. I remember being 130 in highschool and I was still considered overweight according to the BMI because I am short. That messes with your head!!
Onto another thing. I have realized now that I have actually lost more than 10 lbs that there are the people that genuinely happy for me and the people who aren't. Let me explain. The people who are happy for me are people who are also going through the same thing and the ones closest to me. On the other hand, there is my mom and my cousin to pinpoint them. My cousin is overweight also and she was going to go to the gym with me but never signed up. She will like every post of mine on FB but my fitness and weight loss ones. When I see her she doesn't even mention anything to me about how I look or whatever. It makes me feel awkward! My Aunt and Uncle stay stuff about it and she just sits there and gets this weird fake smile on her face. It is sooo weird. NOW my mom.... ugh. She drives me nuts. When I started gaining weight she would brag about how she weighed less than me. At one point she weighed 40 lbs less than me. I was happy for her! It sucked for me but whatever. I called her Friday and told her how much I weighed and this is how the conversation went down...
"Mom, I am so excited! I weigh 209 now!!"
"......... that doesn't make me happy" (awkward silence)
"ummm why wouldn't you be happy for me?"
"well you weigh less than me now and I don't like it"
"........ umm, ok"
Yea... how do you even respond to that? She should be happy for me! She should be happy I am losing weight and getting healthy! It made me sad and makes me not want to share my good news with her anymore!
Ok now that I am officially typed out, I am off to bed.
I had a busy busy weekend and just finished it off with a 2 mile walk/run. This mama is tired!
Thanks for listening to my rambles (if you made it this far lol)
Jackie - chatty mama