Sunday, May 05, 2013
So I'm not sure when I left, but I am coming back. I need the help, I need the support, I need some type of accountability. I'm tired of people telling me that I look like I've lost weight when I just gained 10 lbs back, it doesn't help anyone to tell me that. I'm exercising but i need to recognize (because I already know) that its not enough. Eating less calories then I burn is the only way, and eating how I've been eating it doesn't matter how much I work out I'm eating way too much. The worst part is is that the food is never as good as I think its going to be, and I keep eating hoping I will find this nirvana of a food that will make me "happy" and instead I feel guilty, ashamed, fat, ugly, and discouraged. I found myself looking at appetite suppressants, and diet pills, and i know that those are not healthy, but even now i'm contemplating. I came back because I need to change like I found the change before. I need the control back in my life, i need to start losing weight so I can find my self confidence, my happiness, and my self again.