Sunday, May 05, 2013
Last time i remember ,when life became very uncertain was 15 years back.I was just out of high school ,not being able to land a spot in college where everyone thought I would be. The first month was ok.I still had a fire in me to do something but slowly it started to fizzle out.I started realizing ,where I wanted to be was not within my reach.My constant thoughts were ,no matter what I do from now onwards ,this is the best my life will be. I turned to food.I was alone ,tasting freedom for the first time and really had no idea what to do with my life.Few memories which still linger ,are of these beautiful girls in my college having their group and having fun and I used to wonder ,wow ,why don't fit I in there ?Instead , I made friends who I thought where even worse than me.I just happened to find myself in their company and suddenly I was the better one and then the downward spiral started.I was going no where. Me ,who at one time ,was so fiercely competitive,who would get what she wanted without caring for the price she would pay,became the one who will settle.
This blog is written because similar thoughts are going through my head and I had this strong idea that may be, just may be ,this time the uncertainty wont get the better of me.I will be able to keep my focus and do what I want to do. The first thing , I need to do is to start small and by small I mean ,SMALL . My life is such a mess that to distangle it ,I need to take this one pound at a time. My first goal :To weigh 182 pounds. I am not planning to count calories at all.instead ,i am going to focus on nutrition.Just plain nutrition. Lets see where do I reach.