So close. So far away.
Sunday, May 05, 2013
Today is weigh-in day for me and I am 3.5 pounds down this week! Before you all remind me that 3.5 is too much to be a healthy weight loss, I gained .5 pounds last week because of period bloating. I average a four week period together to make sure I'm okay and this last four weeks saw a loss of about 1.75 pounds per week which is perfect. It is a very good idea to look over your weight loss for a month because weight loss is inconsistent and there are variables like bloating/water retention, too much cheese (maybe only in my world), etc. So as long as it averages 1.5-2.0 pounds per week over one month then you are doing just fine.
It is actually quite liberating because then I'm not always worried about losing too much or not enough based on one week.
Now, this week I weight in at 271 pounds. That is down from last week's 274.5 and the week before's 274. Overall, I have lost 13 pounds in 10 weeks. Patience isn't my strong suit generally, but I see a downward pattern and I am enjoying to stressing about weight loss too much, while seeing it go down.
The title of this post is "So close. So far away." because I am making 5% goals. (10 pounds-at-a-time goals work, too). My first 5% goal puts me at 269.8 (I'm thinking of it as 269.5 because my scale does .5 lb increments). I am SO close to that goal. 1.5 pounds close! And yet it has been 10 weeks already. I really want to see that goal met so that I can celebrate and then make a plane for the next 5% and add some new habits for the next round.
But it is still 1.5 pounds and here is where my patience issue comes in: if I stay diligent and on track, then I can easily hit that weight next Sunday (seems how my period was last week), but I could always miss it by .5 pounds and have to wait another week to see that 269.5. I want it SO bad, but it feels like a lifetime away!
The second part of the title "So far away." has part to do with the anticipation of next weeks weigh-in, but more to do with a realization that within the next month (hopefully), I will see 265 pounds. 265 pounds is exactly 100 pounds over my ideal weight and 90 pounds over my goal weight. But just thinking "100 pounds" is really discouraging. I feel a little ill at the thought of having SO far to go.
But I keep reminding myself that I could be there by this time next year. And even though that is my goal weight, I feel really good about myself, pretty and confident, at about 220 pounds.
When I think of it that way, from right where I am today I have 51 pounds before I feel really good and everything after that is bonus feel good pounds to get me to feel good AND healthy.
51 pounds also seems like a lot, but let's think about this. I lost 13 pounds in about 2.5 months and one of those was a really stagnant month of travelling to my parents' house. So let's say 10 pounds per month, BEST case scenario. It is May. I could be at my "feel good" weight by the beginning of October and honestly I won't care as long as I am there by Thanksgiving. That gives me an extra two months even!
So 7 months to lose 50 pounds is 7-8 pounds per month... 1 pounds per week. There is NO pressure at 1 pound per week!
Sorry about all the math, I just needed to reassure myself that there is no reason to stress and that 106 pounds left to go is still doable.
I can do this.