Sunday, May 05, 2013
Ever get that feeling of being THIN?
I do, usually means I would see it the next day on the scale. But it feels so much more then it showed on the scale this morning, I know I know, it hasn't even been a full week. My body just makes NO sense to me.
Friday was a bit of a tough day, I ended up going over my calories just by a little, I hadn't had dinner yet and I decided to have a sandwhich. But that was is, and that was that. Next day, UP! I was up a lb! grrrr!
So I was determined Saturday to make it a much better day, and BOY did I! I stayed at the very low end of my calories, I did great with working out etc. So I thought maybe just maybe id be down that lb maybe more this morning. eh...
I was down but only like .8 or so.
I then said well I feel so much thinner! I took out the measuring tape! eh.....this is why I never measure, because it NEVER goes down. I have to lose SIGNIFICANT weight in order to see the tape measure go down in numbers too.
If my thyroid is ok, why does it take me so much slower to lose!
Again I know I need to give it time. Im already getting frustrated- and that SHOULD NOT happen, I think its because my health is on the line and im wanting this bad, more then before, because I need to be here for my daughter. I have the control to fix this.
Things I need to focus on, I feel proud that im putting my foot down and doing something about my health. Im making the right decisions to better my health and life. Its a life journey I understand, im gonna be doing this forever.
I only have 6 months to show improvement in my cholesterol. I don't wanna be put on meds, I heard the meds make u hurt all over. And if anyone doesn't know, im already in servere pain EVERY DAY, why make it worse?
Im doing this to benefit my life, my health, my overall being.
How do I speed up my metabolism? am I exercising TO much? am I not eating ENOUGH calories. For the most part ive been eating closest to my highest calorie, im trying to figure out what works. idk.....
Im gonna keep moving forward. Im gonna stay positive. Continue to track, EVERYTHING.
Hopfully my body will start agreeing with me.
Like before, im looking at it, as every 5 lbs as a mini goal. I don't like looking at the whole picture- when I get there is when I get there....
But 5 lbs would be great right....
Hi Body- could u just show me a little faith in u. Can I please make it to my first 5 lb mini goal. Least id know I was doing something correct.