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going after what i want

Sunday, May 05, 2013

I don't want to be fat anymore. I live my whole life that way. I have had a good life, even when things were kind of ugly, my life has been a good one. I have always loved myself though I have always known I could be a lot better. I have had made huge strides in my faith and just in general, being a nicer more loving and accepting person. As my Spark anniversary is just two weeks away and though I planned to be so much further, I am happy with what I have accomplished. I want to be fit and healthy. I want to be long and lean (I got the long part down). I want to feel GORG whether I am in sweatpants or a bodysuit. I don't want to have to pose for every single picture I take because I will be confident with what results the camera shows me. I am so close to getting there.

These past few months, I was subconsciously throwing it away. I went from losing every week, to losing a couple pounds a month, to losing nothing for months, to gaining 5 pounds in two weeks. If that isn't a sign that I was on my way back to "Before" then I don't know what is. But THIS time, unlike the hundreds of other times I have lost weight, I caught myself and turned it around.

This past week, I worked out 5 days and put in 415 fitness minutes. That is nearly an hour and a half each workout. And they were intense workouts. Yesterday alone, I did 30 minutes of weights (shoulder, backs and glutes) and then did 30 min run/walk intervals and THEN went straight to Zumba. Today I am taking my gym bag to work with me and working out after I serve (which is a workout in itself, running back and forth thru a restaurant). Tomorrow, I have Zumba. Tues, Wed, and Thurs I will be training my running group. Friday I will do a light workout and Saturday I have a 5k (the Color Run). I will shoot for 450 fitness minutes this week. I have already gotten rid of 3 of those extra pounds!

Before I go, I have a HUGE NSV for me. My mom gave me a ton of clothes to sale at my garage sale but weather forced me to cancel it. One of the things in her pile was an olive colored, military style blazer that still had the tags on it. It looked pretty tiny; it was a misses 14. Well I am in a 16 so I was just going to sell it. But something told me to try it on. It fit like a glove! But the bigger NSV came when I wore the jacket to my mom's house. She kept saying, "That is the jacket I gave you to sell. It looks so good, I think I want it back." So we were going back and forth. My brother and my cousin were there and my brother finally interjected. "Mom, you wouldn't even be able to wear that- Nikki is smaller than you. " You could have knocked my mom over with a feather. I have NEVER been smaller than my mother since I was 10 years old. We actually wore the same size when I was 10 and after that, I have always been larger than her. When she tried to deny it, my brother started to prod her to try it on. She refused and told me to keep it! emoticon

Well I have to get to work. Have a fantastic day Sparklers!

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LILSHINE 5/9/2013 8:53AM


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BMCKEOW1 5/6/2013 4:53PM

    I understand that first part of your blog so well. I am pushing through it though. I don't want to go back to how I was before. Congrats on the clothes that a huge NSV. You should be doing your happy dance, you've worked hard and it's paying off.

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READY4CHANGE81 5/6/2013 4:00PM

    The beginning of your blog spoke to me so much! I have felt like I am on a weight loss roller coaster lately and I don't want to go back to before. I'm off antibiotics and done being sick and back in the gym. It feels good to work towards my goals! I definitely don't want to erase the hard work I've put in! You are doing great and continue to inspire me. :)

Way to go on the new jacket!!! emoticon

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MISSB8604 5/6/2013 2:45PM

    Nicely done girl, I am BEYOND proud of you!!!!!!!

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GIRLONFIRE1979 5/6/2013 12:02PM

    I love this blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Very motivational and I'm super happy for you!

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ALICIALYNNE 5/6/2013 8:34AM

    Congrats on your NSVs!!!!

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2016LUTMP 5/6/2013 8:27AM

    I loved your NSV! I had one myself this weekend. Sister-in-law, who is typically critical, judgemental, grouchy and perpetually tired and overwhelmed by her life (needless to say she is quite obese and comes up with every excuse in the book to do nothing about it) told me I was looking great! I take back every unkind word I have ever said about her ;) emoticon

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SUGAR0814 5/5/2013 9:47PM

    emoticon job on catching yourself before you were back to the BEFORE! emoticon on the NSV! Keep up th great job you're doing!

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PAPER_WINGS18 5/5/2013 9:39PM

    What a great nSV girl! Take a pic and post for us all to see!!


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REGILIEH 5/5/2013 9:10PM


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MJREIMERS 5/5/2013 12:31PM

    Look at how far you've come! Catching yourself and turning it around! Now that's progress! You've got this and you KNOW that emoticon

Keep the goal in focus and JUST DO IT!

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MERRY_XMAS 5/5/2013 11:49AM

    Way to go! You are on fire!!!

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MY_TIME_2_SHINE 5/5/2013 11:40AM

    Ohh I loved this blog!! emoticon for catching yourself before you reverted. I have the same issue with my mom. I've been bigger than her for a minute now & I can't wait until that changes. emoticon that you have accomplished that!! You are putting in some major work. emoticon sis, I am going to do my best to be right up there with you. Your blogs & comments always motivate me emoticon

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SPARKLE1908 5/5/2013 11:37AM

    NSV are sooooo important on this journey...I am happy for you and you have a great attitude towards everything...good job on the are kicking butt!!!

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MICKEYD4 5/5/2013 10:57AM

    emoticon emoticon that your brother got your mom to see that you had gotten smaller than her. emoticon

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PURPLE180 5/5/2013 10:26AM

    emoticon WooHoo on the NSV. And way to go on catching yourself before it got out of hand. Your goal is so close, I know you will make it.

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