Sunday, May 05, 2013
Assignment: Post a blog about how you feel and how you're progressing.
My enthusiasm is waning so much. I feel tired and worn out, a little overwhelmed. I burst into tears from just going out to the store and library today. I've only been out of the house a few times besides all the doctor and hospital visits these six weeks since I've had the baby. I'm fighting to keep my depression in check. I pulled up the websites for the local dojos and just pretty much ogled over them. Mostly karate and tae kwon do with a few MMA and ju jitsu classes. I miss my judo. But the nearest dojo is three towns away and my husband works crazy hours. I can't afford the national association insurance and membership fees, the dojo fees, babysitting, and gas. It's the one big thing I feel the most loss of having to trade for being a mother. I want to dance and do yoga. I want to fight. I don't like being restricted still. Wow, this post feels a lot more negative than I feel.