Saturday, May 04, 2013
Better late than never I suppose. I have completely lost focus on the cardio. I was scheduled to do it both days and I just went BLAH and skipped it. I have got to find something fun to do for cardio or I am never going to make any progress!
I barely stayed within calorie range both days, and here is the fun fact- I felt overly full at doing that. My May goals of 10 glasses of water a day are doing well so far. But I am miserably failing at the exercise part.
Still deciding what I want to do for my next IT cert. The focus and determination is just not there right now. I do not know where it went, and I worry that soon I will lose my focus on calorie intake and give up altogether. I am not even logging as I eat, I am just logging at the end of the day the past two days.
I know it is from job rejection after job rejection, I am just in a terrible slump right now, but trying to convince myself to get up and do what I am supposed to do to get healthy is nearly impossible. My energy level has been low-I know it is due to not exercising, but I still do not get up and move. The pity party in my head will not clear out so I can move forward, and I am holding onto what little control I have by not letting myself hit the store for cookies and chips.
I am not sure what steps to take next to get myself out of the slump. Whenever I felt bad about myself before, I'd just treat myself to food to make me feel better. Not having a hobby to lean on, I am kind of stuck.
I have been getting stress headaches for the last two days as well. I know it is the workload at home, but it still is less than fun. Having 2 dogs barking to go out, kid wanting her bedtime kisses and stories, and husband doing whatever it is that he does on the computer (studying probably-doing his best to ignore the needs of the "children"). Today I started in. I said nastily that I knew what I wanted for Mother's Day, but before I could finish, I was told to go take my pills. (I did not finish the sentence, took my pills and did my chores).
I still have Sunday left to get through before I can put the house back in order and have some peace again. I got the daughter her next science experiment. Mealworms. So, she is set to watch their life cycle. I think we will do tadpoles for the summer months. (I try to keep her engaged in things she finds interesting even if it is not my cup of tea).
Hope things get better soon. Hate not having the willpower to get up and do cardio even though I despise it. At least I will have a higher energy level if not some feeling of reduced stress.