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Who Knew?! :(

Saturday, May 04, 2013

Who knew I could be here? at 202 lbs. My highest weight ever... I thought I was miserable at 170!! 202 is... well.. discouraging and blahhh.
Just last year I was finally in the 140s again.. and now I have gained ALL my weight back plus 30.
This is so hard.
I have lost weight successfully twice. Easy. No problem. But this time around I can not seem to get the hang of it!!
NONE of my clothes fit!
I can physically feel myself carrying around this FAT!
I have gained 50 lbs in a year!!
I am so frustrated and sad and.. I'm at a loss.
I so desperately want to weigh 150 again. I was so happy and most importantly I FELT good... ugh!!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
RANEYDAY91 5/11/2013 8:09AM

    Well you know you can do it! Look at you, you already accomplished this twice; so you know you can do this! Stay in there girl and fight the fight! emoticon

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CINDYKC2000 5/8/2013 9:08PM

    Baby steps! Make simple changes one at a time and you will get it done. emoticon

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 5/5/2013 10:22AM

You can do this. I don't know that I can add anything that others have not already said, but one day at a time and I know you can reach those goals! Don't beat yourself up -- it doesn't do anything to help your progress and only makes you feel worse! You are worth the time and effort to love yourself for who you are, right this minute, no matter what the dress size is.
Yep, I know it can make you feel discouraged, but hang in there and most importantly don't give up! you CAN succeed!!

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CHRISTINASP 5/5/2013 2:43AM

I think it's best to develop steady healthy habits no matter what else you do. If you can get into a habit of moving your body / exercising daily for say 40 or 60 minutes, it gives you a basis. I said in my blog last week: I wish someone had encouraged me to walk every day for 30 to 60 minutes per day when I was 20. It would have made a huge difference to my health as it is today if I could have just made it a habit to take daily walks.
You can also strive to incorporate more vegetables in your diet: make a green smoothie every morning. These habits will support you if you lose weight again and will help you maintain it.

My personal idea (and experience) is that dieting causes weight gain - in the long run. Better to look for healthy things you can do for yourself day in day out.

Comment edited on: 5/5/2013 2:49:04 AM

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OOLALA53 5/5/2013 12:50AM

    You are a good person and this is not a measure of your worth at all. I hope you aren't seeing it that way.

Your experience is actually typical. Manipulating our eating for the sole purpose of losing weight is statistically a recipe for failure. The small percentage who do manage to lose and maintain for that purpose don't prove it's the right tactic, in my opinion. Don't blame yourself for falling for it.

Most of the success stories I've read have been about people who finally stopped aiming at a certain weight and committed to eating in a reasonable way to feel their best. (My turning point came when I cared more about decreasing my bingeing than about losing weight.) You already know you felt good, though I hope it wasn't just because you felt thin. You are in a prime position to get it right. Be patient with yourself and just get back to planning some good, satisfying meals for yourself. Try not to aim a weight loss for a bit, but at eating good quality food and let yourself get stable at that. I bet your appetite will naturally decrease and you'll be able to eat less again. But it won't likely happen overnight. Take it a meal at a time for awhile.

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KORABELLA 5/5/2013 12:18AM

    Well then, what a great first step back in the right direction! The best thing that has worked for me this far is finding people to keep me on the right path! If you need a spark buddy to keep you accountable, I'm here! :) emoticon

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CHARDY0125 5/4/2013 11:46PM

    Dont give up, it will happen and you will lose. emoticon emoticon

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SISTERPRETTY 5/4/2013 11:34PM

    emoticon take it 1 step at a time

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AM217PERRY 5/4/2013 11:26PM

    emoticon , stay focused and don't beat yourself up too've done it before and you will do it day at a time.

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