50,000-59,999 SparkPoints 54,600

I Can Do It!

Saturday, May 04, 2013

Not going to lie, sometimes I do feel like quitting or giving up or just not trying as much. But like the picture says, "I have a lot of _________ to prove wrong." Especially myself. Looking back I realize I was always the hardest on myself. I mean sure my family said and did some really mean things and it really hurt and I of course want to prove them wrong. But because of all the things they said and did, it made me believe it and I always, always ended up being much harder on myself. Looking back I realize that I was even unhappier and unhealthier than I thought. Mentally and physically. There are times where I just want to quit.. Like when I don't see the scale moving. Or when I do see the scale moving but I actually feel like I gained weight and not lost it. Or when I see people doing things (like running) and knowing that I'm not there yet. All these things make me want to quit. They make me want to give up and not try. But somewhere along this journey I started I found the strength to keep going. I use to give in to the wanting to quit. But something is different this time. When I get those feelings I find myself digging deep and pushing on even harder than before.

Now though that I am on this journey of mine, I can slowly feel those feelings of not being good enough breaking. I can feel myself getting stronger, mentally and physically and I am happy. Really happy. I am not where I want to be yet but I am on my way there and it makes me feel great. I have a man that loves me no matter what. He is always supporting and encouraging me and even working out with me! Now when I see people doing things that I can't do yet I find myself saying, I'll be doing that soon. I can't do it yet but I will get there.

Like running. I have never been a runner. But for some odd reason I got the urge to do a 5K. Yet each time I set out to train for it something in me said, "You're too fat for this. Fat people don't run." I would always get discouraged. I would always give up and go back to doing what I knew I could do.

Now though I have realized that I can do it. The only thing stopping me from doing it is myself. So I have sought out help. I have read articles upon articles about training for a 5K. I have read blogs from people that have ran 5K's. I have even talked to friends about breathing strategies. And.. I haven taken myself out jogging. I may not be able to go that far but I know that I have to take baby steps to get there. And now tonight, I have downloaded an app called C25K. I am going to use it to help me train for my 5K. I am excited about using the app and the help that it will offer. I am even more excited because I can see my goal in site!!!

Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    Yes you can, I have faith in you sweetie.
    1654 days ago
  • CANDOK1260
    happy you doing whatr yuo want i am waling my first official 5k sat at the zoo. Don;t know if i ever br avble to run but good luck.
    1659 days ago
    emoticon I've found that proving people wrong is a great incentive. I know you can do it! emoticon emoticon
    1660 days ago
    Good luck!
    1660 days ago
    You ABSOLUTELY can do it. I started running for the first time in my life at age 50. Huffing and puffing all the way (note - thin does not mean fit). Four years later I have run my 11th Half Marathon and love, love, love the personal reward I get from it. C25K is a great program that will get you there. Run on!
    1660 days ago
    Thanks for sharing
    1660 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.

More Blogs by FIT2BCARRIE-D