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When Did I Become THAT Girl?

Saturday, May 04, 2013

You know the one I mean: that one you catch staring at another women's butt or legs... not in a sexual way, but a depressed, envious, defeated - take another bite of your fries - look. YUP. I've become HER! I used to see those girls on occasion; young or older, and think to myself "Someone needs to tell her she's beautiful... I'll never let that happen to me." Well now I know that it doest matter how many people in your corner tell you you're beautiful if you don't believe it. The only one that can make you stand tall is you. For the first time in months I bought some new clothes today as the weather is finally warmer. Size 16 - I expected that... but I didn't come home crying like I might have expected. It's important I look good and feel good about ME if I'm going to be motivated enough to make the changes I need to make to get back down to a healthy weight. I am resolved that tomorrow I start a new chapter. Tonight food and laughs with friends, beer and appetizers. I will toast my new goal and anticipated success ~ NOT mourn what I'll "be missing".

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RENEEV777 5/4/2013 5:56PM

    Thanks Happy-Me-Soon! I know exactly what you mean - went to a Jays game this week, felt a little self conscious seing all the female fans in their tight little Jays shirts and short shorts... then saw a picture of us my sister in law posted on facebook using her iPhone - instant punch in the stomach - here I thought the oversized clothing (all in black) would make me less noticeable _ WAY WRONG!

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HAPPYMENOW58 5/4/2013 5:38PM

    Good for you...You CAN do it! I know what you mean about noticing how great other people look....It can really make you feel awful...boy, can I relate...I think for me it's all part of my denial process....I like to think I look better than I do...Then, I see a picture of myself....whammy! Can't believe how bad I look! Do you know what I mean? Denial is just soooo powerful...Really working at seeing the reality of my weight problems...It's a BIG issue for me! Good luck in your weight/health journey....Hang in there....Hope you reach your goals soon. emoticon emoticon

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A-DAY-AT-A-TIME 5/4/2013 5:31PM

  You got this!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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