Saturday, May 04, 2013
You know the one I mean: that one you catch staring at another women's butt or legs... not in a sexual way, but a depressed, envious, defeated - take another bite of your fries - look. YUP. I've become HER! I used to see those girls on occasion; young or older, and think to myself "Someone needs to tell her she's beautiful... I'll never let that happen to me." Well now I know that it doest matter how many people in your corner tell you you're beautiful if you don't believe it. The only one that can make you stand tall is you. For the first time in months I bought some new clothes today as the weather is finally warmer. Size 16 - I expected that... but I didn't come home crying like I might have expected. It's important I look good and feel good about ME if I'm going to be motivated enough to make the changes I need to make to get back down to a healthy weight. I am resolved that tomorrow I start a new chapter. Tonight food and laughs with friends, beer and appetizers. I will toast my new goal and anticipated success ~ NOT mourn what I'll "be missing".