Saturday, May 04, 2013
I can go on and on about what I don't do and what I do do in terms of how I am working towards losing weight. When I had my first 2 kids I was able to lose the weight quickly because it was all mainly baby weight from the pregnancy but when I got pregnant with my 3rd son/child I was on bed rest from heart complications and pregnancy complications and I gained a lot of weight. After I had him I do believe I went into a postpartum depression because he cried every time we picked him up and I breast fed him and I felt like I was doing something wrong with him (later we found out he has Autism and Epilepsy).. I went back to work before I was medically ready to because I just didn't want to be at home any longer (yes I know that sounds bad but I can't help how I felt than). I worked in a fast food restaurant and when I would eat thats all there was and when I went home I would bring that food home because I was too tired to cook and so on and so forth the years and the poinds just added up than I got pregnant again and still hadn't lost the weight from my son.
Now its been nearly 8 years since I had my last baby and about 7 years since I got my tubes tied so I really don't have any excuses for why I weigh more now than when I had them except I have put all my focus on taking care of my kids and my home and working (before I am not working now) that I never put any focus on myself. In the last 5 years I went into a major depression and wound up staying in a bed nearly 3 years and when I got out of that depression I got a job and went out with friends occasionally and took care of myself along with my kids and I started losing weight. In 1 year I had lost 70 lbs but in the last year since I have not been working or able to go out sometimes and am just with the kids 24/7 I am putting that weight back on. I don't eat unhealthy I don't sit on my butt all day so I am just unsure what and where I am going wrong on losing this weight.
I want to lose this weight for my health, I have asthma and a bad heart and am at risk of high blood pressure and diabetes. I want to see my kids grow up and I want to see their kids and I want to be more active with them. I hope this site can help me. I really don't have a support system around me so this may be all that I ever get in terms of support and someone to talk to.
Sorry for the book but my aunt made me do it lol ;) love you Ron Ron...