Saturday, May 04, 2013
I have so many good friends on here that have helped me on my journey, and I wanted to share why I stepped off the track so suddenly. The evening of my last blog post I got sidelined by an anxiety attack and took myself to the ER. Seems there are some stresses from the past that bubbled up and its taken me a bit to get my footing again. Eeeghads, never experienced that before. I have a lot more compassion for people that struggle with this now, for sure and for certain. Being honest and open about it is helping take its power away.
I refuse to be sabotaged by the past. I started seeing a therapist and she's helping me become more mindful about this situation and work toward healing. Its a strange feeling to step on a rug and have it slide out from under you.
Was just listening to a you tube song 'Whom Shall I Fear/God of Angel Armies'. Powerful and moving.
Food became my comfort of choice and four pounds gained later I'm ready to continue my focus.
Today I'm helping with the Bountiful Baskets at our agency. Its a coop where you can get regular or organic veggies for the same cost that grocery stores buy it, and our agency became a distribution center and some of the employees take turns volunteering. My house will be filled with yummy healthy foods this afternoon.
Grandkids coming later too! I'm looking forward to laughter and joy filling my house today.