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Friday, May 03, 2013

Can't really think of a better title than that.
I was doing so great, like happens often, then I let life gets in the way, which ALWAYS happens. I stay drowning in struggles for a few months before I pull myself out again and then have another two to three months of success before I start the cycle all over again.
I've been seeing a wonderful counselor off and on. She's kind of my sounding board to keep me sane, pats me on the back and puts me back in the war letting me know I CAN do it! For some reason I brought up my frustration with my dedication to my health and the cycle I go through. She started digging deep to help me figure it out. Wow, very interesting and brought tears. The Ah Ha moment has not come yet but I know it's something I need to work on.
The half marathon I trained for is next Saturday. My training has been thrown off, I've gotten walking in but nothing intense like I need. The pain in my feet and knees and hips are still there. It doesn't take as long or as far to get them hurting. I've got to decided if my body can do 6.55 miles in one week.

I'm grateful for my Spark Friends and team challenges that keep me somewhat conscious of my choices and make me want to put ME back on the list.

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    I hear you on the mental/emotional side if this journey. I am tired of those"setbacks" but I know true progress can't happen without them.

    I say walk as far as you can at the might surprise yourself!
    1270 days ago
    Do what you can and rejoice in your accomplishments!

    Also, my physical therapist (who is great by the way) says that it should not hurt! May wish to try physical therapy at some point, and soak in epsom's salts in the meantime.

    I go in and out of pain too so I know what it feels. Hope you get some mending soon. emoticon
    1270 days ago
    Can you just walk a 5K maybe?
    1270 days ago
    Can it really be good to walk through pain? Not sure. But I'm certain that you will come to the right decision. The on-again, off-again thing is something we all do. It's normal. The fact that you are still trying is PROOF POSITIVE that eventually you will get where you want to go. YOU WILL!
    1270 days ago
  • CARRIE1948
    Just go walk the race.
    1270 days ago
    Good for you for working with your therapist to dig up the reasons behind the struggles. It can be so helpful to work on issues with someone to support you!
    1270 days ago
    I think you are a wonderful, beautiful, inspiring soul and you certainly deserve happiness and joy! I am proud of you for going to a counselor to get help and to dig deeper. You will succeed. Don't fret. The best is just ahead of you because you keep on trying.
    (((hugs))) and *high fives*
    1270 days ago
    I've been there and I know how you feel. I wish I knew the solution. After four months on track, I blew it today. Well, I didn't exactly blow it. It was one day. But I went nuts and that scares me! Keep talking to your counselor and working on YOU. Just do what you are able to do without too much pain. I look forward to seeing more of you on Spark!

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    1271 days ago
    I'm sorry to hear your in pain, I hope you feel better!
    1271 days ago
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