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Tough day

Friday, May 03, 2013

Yesterday was a really hard day for me. I openly admit I have a lot going on in my life. My typical day goes something like this 6 am-2:30 PM work job 1, 3:00-7:30 spend time with my toddler, make dinner, get her to bed. 7:30-11:30 PM work job 2. Weekends are spent trying to catch up on sleep between getting in quality toddler time.

A friend at work pulled me aside yesterday to say that I need to take better care of myself. I know I come to work looking absolutely exausted. Sometimes my eyes are so baggy you can't tell if I'm tired or have a black eye. My hair is almost always just thrown up in a pony. I'm sure it was a very hard thing for her to talk to me about--I can only imagine how awkward it was for her. I was really embarrassed, but if nothing else, I can try to put a bit more consealer on under my eyes.

Truthfully, I know I have just looked beat lately. I hate that it matters at my job, but I don't really want people talking about me behind my back. I mean, my jobs both involve sitting at a computer all day, with no public contact. At both jobs, I'm consistently ranked in the top 2-3% of people in my position. So I think it just sucks that appearance matters. And I think it's obnoxious that people were starting rumors. I totally appreciate my friend coming to me about it, but I think the whole issue is just petty.

On a larger scale, I'm not sure what else I can do to keep all the balls juggling. I feel constantly overworked, and pulled from one thing to another. We need the money, so I can't really give up the jobs, and I can't imagine giving up any more time with my kid. But I haven't even gone out to dinner with my friends in 9 months now, and I don't see how I can keep up the pace. Arg!
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    Oh how I know what you're going through! Years ago I had the same problem, I wish there was an easy answer! I do know that I did schedule 1 hour a week of quiet time for just me...no kids, no work, no stresses. just an hour for either a bubble bath, reading a book, watching a TV show, or sometimes just sitting outside watching the birds. It doesn't "Fix" anything, but it was my way of giving myself permission to just relax and do something for myself. SLAVEBLUERAVEN had a great idea too. emoticon
    And, you don't owe anyone at work an explanation, they are not walking in your shoes and simply can't understand that your life is to busy for nail polish and Clairol#10.
    Hang in there...it will get easier. Kids grow up fast, and if you keep working hard you will see the light at the end of the tunnel. Good Luck!
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    You have to understand that if you are exhausted you are less capable of doing things for others and juggling everything. You have to take care of yourself! Try to schedule 15 to 30 minutes a day just for you. emoticon
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