Friday, May 03, 2013
I don't understand why you continue to do this to me, or why I let you. You know I deserve better, am worth more and quite frankly I am sick of all of your excuses. I know what I am capable of, I know where I was a few short years ago. I am done letting you win! We argue everyday and I'm done arguing with you. I have allowed you to beat me down, talk me out of things and convince me that having the body and mind I want isn't possible. Well guess what...you are wrong SELF. I can achieve what I want to achieve! It may take time, longer than I want since I'm being honest, but it CAN be done.
I've run 5ks, 10ks and even a half marathon. I completed some small mud runs and even the Tough Mudder! Who are you to tell me I can't?!?! It is time to start living my life the way I want to live my life! Happy, healthy and full of love!
I may have allowed you to push me back to the bottom, but I'm ready to make that long climb back to the top. It may be a harder battle at 43 than it was at 37 but I have knowledge on my side. I have the knowledge of what it takes, but more importantly I have the knowledge that I CAN do it. I know I can do it because I've done it before.
So self, if I were you I would stop fighting me and join me. It will make things much easier on both of us, and we will both be better off in the long run.
If you don't want to come on this journey than I will have to say goodbye to you and create a new self! It's up to you!