Friday, May 03, 2013
I don't know how many times I've told myself before I go to bed that tomorrow would be different, and it never is.
In the past, my problem was I was in University, and I ate out a lot. Not necessarily unhealthy things, but not the healthiest either. I had a friend who wanted to work out, etc and I would be inconsistent with my desire.
Fast forward just a few months, and I'm living in the United States, in another time zone, with no friends and I spend most of my time alone. My husband works almost 12 hours a day most days. Another change in our lives is that I cook mostly all fresh meals. We have very little processed food in the house, and when we do eat out, its usually something a little 'healthier'. We don't do any burger fast food or that kind of stuff.
That being said, my problem is and always has been my major sweet tooth. In the past, it wasn't so much of a problem because I was at least somewhat active. Now, I can't work and I spend most of the days sitting around. Yes, I could go out and walk or go to the gym, but it's very very hard for me to be motivated when I essentially spend so much time by myself. I find I spend my boredom or my depression eating, and eating sweets in mass form.
I've ballooned up to bigger than I've ever been, and since obesity is in the family, I'm concerned, but yet I can't seem to do anything to fix it. My husband is fit, and thin and he struggles to put on weight where I can't seem to stop. It's frustrating for me!
I hope that using this site and involving myself in it more than I ever did in the past will help me to find a sense of belonging and community, but we shall see.
That being said, over the weekend I'll continue to track my food as normal, and my husband and I are going to go for a hike or something this weekend. Those are activities we normally try to do in the nice weather (which has finally come for Washington State! It's a hit and miss, I find). However, before I can be 100% serious I'm going to take the weekend to gather some things I need. I need to get a scale in the house, and a measuring tape to measure myself. Also, since I came with only a few suitcases I don't have all of my things here. I'm going to get a workout top this weekend, and a water bottle. I'm going to update my ipod, and also spend the weekend trying to come up with a few healthy snacks I can have since thats where I fail the most.
Once I'm armed with these things, I'm going to bear down and make Monday the 6th my b*tch. I would also like to make each day after that feel my wrath. So let's see how long I can keep this desire to fight back against obesity.