Friday, May 03, 2013
The scale is still being all kinds of shady. Here's my morning routine. Get up, pee and weigh. So today I weighed at 160.4. Then I brush my teeth and weigh again because the number is always different the second time. So this morning weight number 2 was 161.4. That's a whole lb fluctuation in like 5 minutes folks. And then I weigh like 5 more times in a row just to see if it changes at all which it doesn't. And it didn't. So 161.4 is what I get today I suppose. This is probably all in my head but I feel like every time I get down close to a new tenths digit, my weight plateaus for a little while. Maybe it's just cuz I want to see that number so bad that I'm so impatient but I feel like its more than that. Anyone else notice that?
Besides that, I'm just fighting through the mental battle. The cravings are pretty strong. I've definitely had a few moments where I wanted to just flake out but so far I've resisted. I'm looking at everyday I last as a victory. It's pretty against my nature to do anything that requires discipline. I'm still obsessing about what comes next. I keep reading blogs and posts online and most people talk about eating raw after. Well I'm ok with transitioning off slowly with raw food and I definitely want to eat clean, unprocessed, plant strong but I also want to be able to eat pizza on occasion too. I'm still craving all the bad stuff and having trouble imagining life without it. And I guess that's what scares me. I hope I can conquer moderation.
My face is breaking out. I only normally break out during my period which I just finished. I hope it's a sign of detoxing. My throat is still really swollen and uncomfortable. I think it's blistering but I don't have a sore throat. Just the swelling. I can't even begin to describe how aggravating it is. I'm considering going to urgent care no getting some steroids. I can't get any relief from it. But I don't know how that would affect the juice fasting or if it would even be safe to juice fast so I'm trying to deal with it but I feel like just ripping my throat out. That would probably solve my weight problems too. My daughter is pretty sick. Her fever was worse this morning than yesterday so I'm probably fighting off whatever she's got. It's rainy and cold here. I still haven't started any kind of exercise but I think I'm just gonna spend the evening snuggling with my little girl and trying to pretend I don't have a throat.
I think tomorrow and Sunday I might try to do without my morning smoothie I've still been having and also pay attention to how many ounces I'm drinking and see if that makes a difference.
My 10 year wedding anniversary is 2 weeks from today. I have to stay motivated.
Happy weekend guys!