Friday, May 03, 2013
Today is my daughter's 34th birthday - wow - if that's not a stark reminder of how old I am! It's one more reason why the procrastination is not good for me. I don't have any time to lose! My new baby grandson Thomas is one month old and I'm looking forward to chasing after him and Bethany. I am, however, feeling more like a grandmother than I did when Bethany was born. I really had mixed feelings about the word "grandmother" 4-1/2 years ago, but I'm starting to accept it finally. It's a rite of passage that I don't want to reject, but I also don't need to embrace the aging that it implies all that quickly either!
I read my blog from Friday, April 13, 2012 Living a Healthier Lifestyle and the one from the previous year April 14, 2011 - I lost 49 pounds between those dates. Now, on May 3, 2013 I've gained at least 20 of it back. What proof of the craziness of this rollercoaster journey! It is motivation for me to get back on plan because I want that healthy feeling back again that I was experiencing last year. I've planned a whole week of menus for next week, just need to go to the grocery store, clean out all the "bad" stuff from my mind and my pantry, and get started on that road again.
So, I choose to forgive myself for the past bad choices and not to repeat them. I choose to embrace the pure joy and love that comes with being a grandmother. I choose to accept the fact that I'm getting old(er)
. I choose to love my old(er) self and to live each day to the fullest. I choose to focus on the positive things and not dwell on the negative and the past. Life is too short to be unhappy. And, I choose to be the best I can be - for myself and for the ones I love.