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Friday, May 03, 2013

Today is my daughter's 34th birthday - wow - if that's not a stark reminder of how old I am! It's one more reason why the procrastination is not good for me. I don't have any time to lose! My new baby grandson Thomas is one month old and I'm looking forward to chasing after him and Bethany. I am, however, feeling more like a grandmother than I did when Bethany was born. I really had mixed feelings about the word "grandmother" 4-1/2 years ago, but I'm starting to accept it finally. It's a rite of passage that I don't want to reject, but I also don't need to embrace the aging that it implies all that quickly either!

I read my blog from Friday, April 13, 2012 Living a Healthier Lifestyle and the one from the previous year April 14, 2011 - I lost 49 pounds between those dates. Now, on May 3, 2013 I've gained at least 20 of it back. What proof of the craziness of this rollercoaster journey! It is motivation for me to get back on plan because I want that healthy feeling back again that I was experiencing last year. I've planned a whole week of menus for next week, just need to go to the grocery store, clean out all the "bad" stuff from my mind and my pantry, and get started on that road again.

So, I choose to forgive myself for the past bad choices and not to repeat them. I choose to embrace the pure joy and love that comes with being a grandmother. I choose to accept the fact that I'm getting old(er) emoticon. I choose to love my old(er) self and to live each day to the fullest. I choose to focus on the positive things and not dwell on the negative and the past. Life is too short to be unhappy. And, I choose to be the best I can be - for myself and for the ones I love.
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    Happy Birthday to your daughter and best of luck with your new resolve to get healthier!
    1659 days ago
    Hooray! It sounds like you are ready to move on! Go get 'em!
    1660 days ago
    Sorry, I am a little late getting back to you from your post on my SparkPage, but I am so glad that I did today and that I read this blog. Lori, I know what it's like to regain and I know what it's like to be in "free fall" with your program and feel like you just don't know how to get started again. And I certainly understand that "I don't wanna" feeling.

    You have found the best motivation I can think of to turn things around. Bethany is growing by leaps and bounds into a beautiful little girl, and now there is Baby Thomas, so sweet and precious. My daughter turned 33 this year. My son will be 36 in July. I'm not even sure how that happened! I have never minded being a grandma, but I do wish that I could be the kind of grandma I always thought I would be ~ not hampered by my weight and lack of fitness, mobility, stamina, etc. Not old before my time!

    I have decided that I simply MUST get back in shape. I must give it all I've got to lose weight and improve whatever I can in my older body, because I want the quality of my life going forward to be better than it is now. I would like to think that, not only might I live long enough to be able to retire, but that I might be able to retire and still be able physically to enjoy those years. So we both have excellent reasons to turn this around.

    You have done great to plan some menus out, and you are definitely in the right mindset. If there is anything I can do to support and encourage you, please let me know. I'm here for you!

    1661 days ago
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