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My journey

Friday, May 03, 2013

Since March 1 when my hubby of 33 years died unexpectedly I have been forced on a journey I never wanted to take.

I have found that I am a lot more resilient, capable and stronger than I ever thought I could be. I am learning to cope with the silence that comes from living alone.

Tomorrow I will scatter his ashes in a lovey little secluded spot. It is a small pond with benches around it. It is only 5 minutes away so I can go visit him whenever I want to.. I think this will put closure to things. I did get a small silver dolphin pendant with just a bit of his ashes. This way no matter where I am he will always be with me.
After that I will be doing some traveling. I have planned to take a tapestry weaving class of 2 1/2 weeks. This falls on what would have been on our 34 th wedding anniversary. I won't want to be alone that day, so this seems like a good idea. Meantime I am going to going to visit my mother for a few days.

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STONECOT 5/3/2013 3:14PM

    You're doing well. It takes a special kind of courage to rebuild when you could shrink into yourself and wallow. I was 'lucky', in that I knew for a year that my husband was dying, and almost did my grieving beforehand. It is probably harder for you. I would wish you luck, but I know that with your attitude, you will succeed.

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LOSIN_IT4GOOD 5/3/2013 12:03PM

    So sorry for your loss. You are among friends here, to support throughout the ups and downs of your journey, one step at a time. My heart goes out to you.

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FEDGIRL4 5/3/2013 10:57AM

    My parents were married 50 years when my Dad died unexpectedly in 2009. She also has a pendant of his ashes.

33 years is a long time. I am hoping you are remembering all the good times. I am sorry your hubby is no longer with you.

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JGIRL5799 5/3/2013 8:29AM

    emoticon prayers with you, I think that is an awesome gesture for you to do that... it means something to you and it is a special moment that will take place and its wonderful memories you will always have of him....I am so sorry you lost someone special in your life... emoticon my heart goes out to you

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EVIE4NOW 5/3/2013 8:25AM

  Am so sorry for your loss.. prayers are with you.

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