Friday, May 03, 2013
I'm very nervous about my weight and trying to lose weight. I really struggle with eating and motivation. The meds I'm on make losing weight very challenging. In the past, if I wanted to lose weight, I could do it lickity-split! Now, I am faced with health issues that require medication that make losing weight and staying motivated very difficult.
Yet, I live with my mother-in-law who has struggled with serious health issues for the past 15 years because of her weight and health. So, I want to get healthier. And I think by trying to live a healthier lifestyle, I might be able to get off of the meds that make losing weight difficult.
Also, my mind can't seem to settle on a particular plan - one minute I decide that I won't try to lose weight, I will just eat healthier and exercise, then I decide that I will try to lose weight, then I decide that I won't try to lose weight, I will just exercise, etc. etc. etc. And my diet plan to lose weight changes every 30 minutes! Oy vey.
So far, the only thing I have done consistently is track my food and what an eye-opener! I'm not successful at following the calorie requirements at this point, I'm just tracking what I eat. Holy cow. Easily 3000-4000 calories per day.
Anyway, I have to let go of a few ideas in my mind of how it "should" be and just take things one-day-at-a-time, go slow, and not get discouraged.
So next steps are to just keep tracking my food and begin some sort of exercise. Once I do that for a while, I will try another small change. After all, I want permanent change and that will only come slowly and gently.
Onward and upward!