Friday, May 03, 2013
Today marks one week of no cell phone. And it has been fantastic. Sure there is some adjustment, but well worth the sacrifice.
Hold up, what's that you say, I need a cell phone?
Oh, you have some more things you need to tell me. You think I should have lost the weight before I quit smoking. You are tired of calling me to tell me about our next meeting and wish I would just get a Facebook already. You think I should just get regular food and supplies at Wal-Mart like everyone else. And you wonder why I have to be so difficult.
Well let me tell you something, This is my path, so get off it!!
So, as it turns out, discovering the truth during this transformation was not all to be centered on my faults and misunderstandings. My discovery this week was that on this journey to better myself, so many people seem to have an opinion on what I should be doing. For some reason, there are people, and a lot of them, that think I need to be walking on the same path that everyone else is walking on. As if I am hurting them by choosing to blaze my own trail and form my own opinions on what is healthy for me and my family. These people step on me, laugh at my dreams, and try to knock me off my path.
Who are they to tell me how I should be walking when they have never stepped in my shoes. And who am I to think I should have to listen to them. My world does not revolve around social trends and fake niceties. I do not have to entertain the man while he goes through my underwear drawer. And I don't care that you went through all that trouble to assign me a number and you are bothered that I'm not walking in line with the rest of them.
I blaze my own trail because I know what is best for me. This is what makes me feel good. I do not judge you for huddling with the masses. That is your journey, do what you like. But for me, I want to climb this mountain. I know what it is like to stay down here on this plateau. It doesn't work for me. I want to see what other possibilities are out there if I dare to open my mind.
And you, my friend, who has only lifted me and supported me on this journey, "Get off my Path!" You have your own trail to blaze. Our Journeys through this transformation can not possibly be exactly the same and we should not judge each other if they differ. For much of this transformation, we may walk close enough to hold hands or pull each other up. But don't be afraid to meander left if the wind pulls you. This is your journey, and the center of it does revolve around you.
And my universe, it revolves around me and those closest to me. And I will not apologize for making these changes. I will not cower or feel ashamed that I have chosen different than you. This is my Journey. This is the Path that I choose to take. This is my truth.