Thursday, May 02, 2013
So today, I finally broke. The shirt I was wearing was so tight across my gut that the buttons were actually starting to look a little concerned with their ability to do their job. Basically, went all day feeling uncomfortable, and decided that enough is enough.
I've been divorced for about three years now, and while I've made a ton of positive changes in my life, my nights generally end with eating in front of the TV. As the weight piled on, my activity got less and less, and my diet got worse, until I'm now about 40 pounds heavier than I was at this time in 2010. Carrying that weight around all day, every day really does take it's toll on you, and frankly, my body doesn't handle the abuse it used to as gracefully as it used to... So, it's time to act like a grown up, and start putting the work in that it'll take to look and feel the way I want to.
So, I'm in the process of building a new townhouse, which should be ready sometime in July. I don't want to bring my bad habits with me, so I'm dedicating the next 90 days to changing my habits, and losing as much weight as I can - hence the handle. In order to do this, I'm doing the following:
Step 1: Went to lands end and ordered new shirts. Three fat guy polos, three fat guy t-shirts, one fat guy button down short sleeved shirt, and one regular dress shirt (you can guess what kind.) It may seem weird to spend money on clothes that are hopefully going to be too big in the not too distant future, but I can't go to work every day feeling like I felt today. Besides, I've spent far more money in the last three years on beef jerky and bad ideas than I have on clothes, so I'm certainly not over budget.
Step 2: I'm starting work with a personal trainer, starting next week. I'm a little concerned at the idea of paying someone to make me do things I know I'm going to hate, but I'm hoping the financial investment will motivate me further. And I need someone to push me, and keep me accountable.
Step 3: Tracking, tracking, tracking. Aside from tracking everything I eat, I'm going to track my exercise goals and measurements as well. I have had a tendency in the past to get off to a great start, and then have one bad week on the scale, and "take a break" from my fitness routine...a break which can last for up to several years. I'm hoping that by focusing on doing the things I need to do every day, and tracking overall progress - not just my weight- I'll have an easier time staying motivated.
Step 4: This. I've had good success here on spark in the past, and found that seeking the support and approval of anonymous strangers on the internet is, for some reason, helpful for me. So I'm going to blog at least once a week. Please feel free to criticize me sharply if I do not.
Step 5: I posted horrifying "Before" pictures. I need to be able to post noticeably better "After" pictures if I'm to regain any of the dignity that the aforementioned horrifying "Before" pictures have cost me.
Well, that's a long post, but it helps me to get my thoughts on paper. Wish me luck!