(Lots of links and history in today's post. Might be easier to view here: wp.me/p1N36Q-6L
I'm all out of whack this week. With all of my AOR stories, I have been neglecting to provide a status check-in.
Mostly it's because I'm still on Day 0 wheat free/binge free, and really just don't want to talk about it. I just want to crawl in bed and sleep for 8000 hours, and I'm pretty sure it's because of the carbs and sugar I have consumed over the last 48 hours. It started yesterday when I brought my car in for service. My dealer always has bagels out for customers, and because there were no loaner vehicles available, I knew I was going to be waiting 2+ hours with binge-tastic bagels staring me in the face. Armed with all of my reading and research that suggests protein is the key to feeling full and satisfied, I downed a bottle of Pure Protein (23 grams of protein, 1 gram of fat) for breakfast, drove to the dealer, and held out for that happy, nourished, "I don't want a bagel" feeling.
It didn't work. Within an hour, the voice in my head was saying "It's just a bagel, one isn't going to ruin your day." (Lies. It's all lies, as Dr. Pam Peeke would say. More on her book tomorrow). One bagel turned into two bagels turned into a ton of other crap when I got home from the mechanic. I struggled through an evening workout, skipped dinner, and woke up this morning feeling lethargic and miserable.
So - easy to get back on track when you are feeling full post bagel-binge, right? Not so fast. Today I had an off-site meeting where lunch was served - my second such meeting this week.
Now, I mentioned this last week, but for the first meeting I attended on Monday, I was able to RSVP in advance for a special gluten free meal option. I ordered a salad with chicken, craisins, and all kinds of crunchy, delicious greens with a vinaigrette dressing. Snack time was even better - yes, there were cookies and brownies out, but they also had a trail mix bar available. They simply put out little baggies and jars full of nuts, M&Ms, raisins, craisins, etc. and you could fill to your heart's content. Clever, no?
Today's meeting was far less accommodating. Lunch offered nothing but sandwiches. Wheat, White, Rye, Wraps - there was certainly enough variety of poison. I did take a turkey sandwich and behaved myself by removing the bread and just eating the turkey, lettuce, and tomato. My good behavior didn't last when they opened the snack bar, though:
You're looking at is a cookie and brownie buffet well after I attacked it.
What I wouldn't have given for that trail mix bar again. I would have maybe made it through a new Day 1 wheat free and binge free.
I need a strategy for when I'm surrounded by cookies or bagels and can't really control my environment. A panic button. A "Break Open In Case of Emergency" Gluten Free Cookie to keep in my purse, perhaps. I'm not certain it will work, as I haven't made a gluten free cookie yet, but I'm optimistic. The gluten free banana bread and lemon bars were both good, satisfying alternatives - although neither would win out over a chocolate chip cookie in my line of vision. Perhaps I'll spend some time baking this weekend to create my "emergency" kit.