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Depressing day

Thursday, May 02, 2013

After a whole lot of stress at work, I've been sneaking home early while the house is empty. I'm embarrassed to say that most of that time alone has been spent eating, like making dinner and eating a portion, and then another portion when hubby and daughter get home. Or today, when I speed at a new bakery down the street because I was craving fresh bread. Well they didn't have any bread, but they did have a lot of sweet treats, so I bought a woopie pie as big as my head. Then I had two big slices of cheese at home (well, i ate the cheese first, then the pie). Even when I was full, I kept eating, because I didn't want any evidence lying around. When my husband got home, I lied and said I had a big lunch and wasn't hungry, but to be honest, if he had cooked or invited me out right then, I would have eaten again. Instead, he suggested we go shopping for stuff for our Disney trip (in 2 weeks). Not being sure if my daughter's summer clothes from last year still fit her, I took her up stairs to try them on. Then I stated going through my closet. First I tried on my old shorts, all of which fit, and some were to big. Feeling unnaturally good, I tried on a bunch of bathing suits. Big mistake, of which I'll spare you the details. After three or four, I couldn't do it anymore, and told my hubby that I was going for a walk. He knew I was upset, but thankfully didn't try to stop me. Instead he took our daughter out to dinner while I walked around the block ( and then some). About 5 minutes from home, my phone rang, and it was my best friend whom I haven't spoken to in ages. She cheered me up and it was just what I needed, and of course I knew that my hubby had told her to call me. I'm glad to have such great people in my life, even if I can't be as honest with them as I can to anonymous strangers on the internet.
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    Oh no! Sounds like one of those days. One thing tips you over the edge and then you just start going down the spiral. Be kind to yourself. You are trying. Hugs.
    1754 days ago
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