Thursday, May 02, 2013
After all the years of counseling, all the work I've done on myself, and still have so much to learn. Right now I'm working on knowing when to stop exercising, when it's as much as I can do, and not beating myself up for not doing more.
I've always been so much harder on myself than on others, never being satisfied even when I can do it all, so not being able to do anywhere near "all" is hard to deal with. I get frustrated and want to completely stop: why start if it's not going to be good enough?
But I am learning to be pleased with what I am able to do, pleased with the progress I'm making, pleased that I got these workout videos and am using them, am learning to eat better rather than only looking at total calorie count.
I am doing a good job, and I am trying to learn to believe it.