Thursday, May 02, 2013
Today I want to post a blog to record for my future reference what I can think about and do to myself both negatively and positively. I think I've come up with a happy conclusion. If so, then perhaps you may recognize yourself in my actions and/or perhaps you will discover a tool or two to help turn around a situation that you previously may have considered unsalvageable. "Unsalvageable," yep, that's exactly what I thought and felt last night. Today as I honestly but painfully tracked my nutrition from yesterday, I changed my mind...
Background Info: Yesterday I ate breakfast in the car(!) on the way to a morning with my DS and DD at a local Racino (one of those addicting slot machine quasi-casino things that my state seems to have approved without the vote of the majority). Don't ask me; I don't know how they did it! And yes, I like to play the slot machines.
After losing my DH's hard earned cash while he was at work trying to make more, my "party" went to lunch at a diner that DBIL (did I just make that one up? Translation in case I did is Dear Brother-In-Law) claimed has wonderful food. Please notice I lost money, all the money I took, so already my emotions were running wild and I gave them free-rein to make my food choices...
Fast forward to two hours later when I decide I want chocolate, I want dessert, I deserve dessert, I need dessert. It is just this one piece of the puzzle that I really want to document and share.
My Nutrition Tracker and Nutrition Notes seem to lay it all out best. So let's cut and paste the good, the bad, and the ugly. Hoping Word and my questionable computer skills help me out so I can do this with some efficiency. Here goes...
NUTRITION TRACKER MAY 1, 2013
Old Fashioned Quaker Oatmeal- Plain (1/2 cup dry), 1 serving 150
Milk, nonfat, 1 cup 83
Cranberries, dried, sweetened (craisins), 10 grams 31
BREAKFAST TOTALS: 264 calories
Lunch: (OMGosh… the Potato Pancake Rueben Special! BTW it wasn’t that good, but I ate it, all of it)
Vegetable Soup, 1 cup 145
Potato Pancakes, 2 pancake 413
Corned beef, brisket, 4 oz 284
Swiss Cheese, 2 slice (1 oz) 213
Sauerkraut, 0.25 cup 7
Thousand Island Salad Dressing, 2 tbsp 115
LUNCH TOTALS: 1,178
Romaine Lettuce (salad), 2 cup, shredded 16
Beef, tenderloin, 4 oz 282
Potato, raw, 1 cup diced 104
Bolthouse Blue Cheese Yogurt Dressing, 1 tbsp 35
Tomatoes, red, ripe, raw, year round average, 5 cherry 18
Cucumber (with peel), 0.25 cup slices 3
DINNER TOTALS: 458
Snack (Both my dessert and an evening snack)
Oreo Oblivion Winking Lizard, 1 serving 1,550
Almonds, 1 oz (24 whole kernels) 163
Grapefruit, fresh, pink and red, California and Arizona, 1 fruit (3-3/4" dia) 91
SNACK TOTALS: 1,804
Daily Totals: 3,704
Your Daily Goal: 1,200 - 1,550
TODAY’S NUTRITION NOTES
Took myself "out to dessert" at the Winking Lizard today. Ate an entire Oreo Oblivion, feeling oh so smug, so special like I was on vacation, sitting outside, even smelling suntan lotion.
I was craving chocolate...PMS!
So is this what I think of vacation? Do I think that I can eat ridiculously high calorie meals and treats while I am on vacation this Summer?
Aha! Caught myself in self sabotage, but too late for today's episode.
Redo... I go to the Winking Lizard with my book like I did, I sit outside, smell the suntan lotion, feel like I'm on vacation, and order a refreshing iced tea with lemon!
WooHoo! Now that's the SparkSpirit! I knew I had it in me somewhere! Yeah, progress is begun with the "sculpting" of my brain via my thoughts. My mind is sculpting my brain to be a masterpiece of healthy success!
Back to the present… I know that my nutrition notes address only part of my challenges from yesterday (casino, lost money, frustration, guilt, hormones, blah, blah, blah... and that there is much more that I can redo about my day to make for progress. However I am taking baby steps… vacation is nearing… this is what I can do at this place and at this time where I find myself. Continuous improvement… baby steps taken lead to big improvement over time…
And my Spark continues... May your Spark continue as well...