Thursday, May 02, 2013
Doesn't sound very hard, does it? Going 24 hours without sweets should be pretty easy. Yesterday afternoon, a friend and I were lamenting about our sugar addictions. We were both overwhelmed by the thought of doing a week long commitment, so my friend suggested that we just go for 24 hours without sweets. My response, "OK, but we need to do it today since the school is having the bake sale tomorrow." One one hand, I admire my self-awareness. On the other hand, I feel pathetic about the fact that I can't take my 8 year old to the school fundraiser night without giving in to the alluring goodies.
I've heard it said of alcoholics that one drink is too much and 100 is never enough. That's how I feel about sugar. Moderation is just not the reality I live in.
This morning I woke up and headed to my blender. I've been making fruit and kale smoothies with protein powder this past week. They are filling and sweet enough without making me feel like I need to consume more sugar as soon as I am done. As I walked into the kitchen, my son was sitting at the table eating Cap'n Crunch. ...peanut butter Cap'n Crunch.
My husband purchased it earlier this week. When I saw it in the pantry I told him that I wasn't not going to eat that. "But I bought it for you." I just smiled. "I ain't eating Cap'n Crack. I can't stop with one bowl."
So there I was. Groggy, annoyed that I didn't have sugar last night, and seeing the Crunch. In filling his bowl, lots of cereal had spilled out on the table. How easy it would have been to just pick up one or two pieces and pop them into my mouth, I thought. And then I had a bit of honesty and told myself that I wouldn't eat just one or two pieces. Besides, my friend and I decided to put a little money on the line. The one who gave in would have to pay the other $5. Self-awareness and the shame of spending $5 for a handful of cereal kept me from giving in.
This little exercise (and I'm only 18 hours into it, but know I can make it) has confirmed that I'm not completely not ready to give up sweets for a week, but I CAN do it for 24 hours. Frankly, that small victory is a real victory. We have decided that we will do this little challenge again starting tomorrow morning. I don't feel like I can give up the sweets over a weekend yet. We'll see how the next challenge goes.