Thursday, May 02, 2013
I feel obligated to do two things today:
1.) Identify a positive reflection after last night's "me whine".
2.) Thank you awesome Spark People who are so supportive and encouraging.
I'll go backwards. I feel a bit guilty blogging on more negative experiences as of late, especially because I have been less active on the site. I don't want to be a taker here, but rather a giver and a taker. I hope to develop the physical and emotional well-being to do that more consistently. Afterall, SP has brought me this far. So in short, if you're reading this, please know how much I appreciate your support. Sometimes I really really really need it.
And now for my positive reflection. Last night's thoughts are still very fresh in my mind and some that concerns me, but I will pursue that thread some other time, when there's progress. The positive today is that this marks a full four months on SP. In January I thought I was making a half attempt at a New Year's resolution, however, cliche, mildly expecting to fail. The wonderful news is that I have not. I am looking at the "what's eating me" rather than the "let's eat" and it is helping me to establish more life long realities.
My four month total marks are:
43 lbs. lost
21.3 inches lost (waist, hips, thigh, arm)
I guess the inches isn't total accurate because I never measured my bust or both arms and legs, but nevertheless have lost almost two feet in circumference, which super awesome when I think about it. My body feels stronger and more resilient; I am less lethargic and more motivated. Granted, my brain and stress levels seem to be lagging behind, but I think part of that has to do with the school year. We are one week away from AP testing and a month and a half from finals, which can really wear on a teacher's patience and organization. But alas I am seeking "me moments" and some mental cleansing for the sake of my future and this journey.