Happy and frustrated
Thursday, May 02, 2013
I'm ecstatic that I'm going to EASILY reach my workout goal of 2,000 calories this week! I've really made the effort despite not getting up in the morning to workout and it feels great! However, my calories have been off the charts. My lowest has been 1,900; 320 above my highest limit! I'm still pulling in a deficit but not the 700 calorie deficit I should be. I'm so disappointed in myself for that.
I do really well at work during the day. Oatmeal for breakfast, salad for lunch, fruit for snack and then I get home and I'm exhausted from my job and the middle of the day workouts and everything I have on hand to make for dinner either takes FOREVER, the ingredients have disappeared or gone bad or it's not what my bf feels like eating so we end up going out to eat or ordering in.
I've attempted making meals ahead of time to alleviate the situation but by the time we end up getting around to eating it, the food is dried out and disgusting. I'm certainly not a top chef and having this happens just makes me not want to put in the effort at all.
My bf likes his snack food; Oreos, M&M's, ice cream...yup we've got them. I do pretty well avoiding these things for the most part or making better choices when I do want a snack, like partaking in a Skinny Cow ice cream bar when he loads his bowl up with cookie dough ice cream and a lake of chocolate sauce. I even went and bought regular M&M's (I prefer peanut butter or peanut) thinking I wouldn't be tempted to eat them...NOPE! I've taken a few handfuls myself before bed because I've been craving chocolate like a mad woman. Yes, this week is the dreaded TOM but still. That doesn't excuse my eating with reckless abandon after putting in so much hard work this week.
I took some time yesterday to plan out 8 different meals to make over the next two weeks and am going to make sure I get the ingredients at the grocery store this week and do everything in my power to ensure these meals get made no matter what. I'm tired of having one part or the other under control, I need them both and that's exactly what I intend to do.
I'm going to take pride in my workout success this week and just keep building on that with hopes that the rest will continue to fall into place.