Thursday, May 02, 2013
After starting this journey two years ago at 195, I am one pound away to my goal - 125. I actually reached that goal two weeks ago, although it was 125.7 (does that count, with the 0.7?), but had a hysterectomy the next day, wasn't in control of what I ate for a week, and gained six pounds! I weighed today, and 5 are now gone, so one is left.
It's been quite a journey. Lots of ups and downs. Life definitely gets in the way and I had to figure out how to maintain a healthy lifestyle no matter what life threw at me, and wasn't always successful. I've moved across the country, been diagnosed with asthma and had to drop out of school for a quarter, changed schools twice, had a hysterectomy, moved twice, I'm sure there are plenty of other things in two years but those are the major ones that come to mind. I suppose those are things that could have made me gain weight in the past.
But while yes, I did slip, or fell flat on my face, because I had been eating a certain way for so long, it's now a habit. How I eat now is just the way I eat, it's what's comfortable to me, it's what I want. I don't like to eat cheeseburgers, cake, candybars, any of that. It doesn't make me feel good about myself. Moving to Chicago, I did want to try all of the new foods the city had to offer and had heard people visit here and gain 10 pounds in a week, but you can eat out and still eat responsibly. I watched a Jullian Michaels interview where she said sometimes women are uncomfortable asking for substitutions, like they are making someone do extra work and don't like to ask. Her suggestion, although I've never done it but it gave me the courage to ask for what I want? Just lie and say you're allergic to whatever it is you don't want. Don't want cream sauce? Say you're lactose intolerant, etc. Not a big fan of lying, but I will say women can be people pleasers, including myself.
I'm worried about not being able to exercise for several more weeks because of my surgery - I can't run for at least five more weeks, maybe seven. I can do an elliptical in three weeks, but I don't own one nor am a member of a gym. That's the beauty of running. You gear up and walk out of your front door - all you need is clear roads! I'm not the fastest runner, and probably the dorkiest looking runner, but...I can run. : )
So, one pound to go, but I can't exercise, can't lift anything, I am supposed to "go horizontal" when I feel pain in my abdomen. So basically, what I do, all day right now, every day, is sit on the couch, and move from the couch to the bed. Oh yes, I do make dinner and when my husband takes the laundry to the laundry room, I sort it and wash it. I have walked to the mailbox to get our mail in front of our house and back. But I just can't think of an exercise I can do right now, but if I give myself the time to heal correctly right now, I will be able to exercise all I want for the rest of my life, and I think that is more important.
Strange thing though - I did my measurements for the first time in a year, and yes, I lost tons of inches, but my hip to waist ratio is 0.86, which says I am at a higher risk for coronary disease? Wow, I just can't win! I don't exactly get to choose where the fat comes from that I lose!
I hope everyone is having a most awesome week!!!!!!