It's been just over 7 months since I've started my journey with Spark People, and I'm almost 40 pounds down. I have to admit, I was very skeptical at first, all the other sites I have tried and failed over the years. And just could never get up enough courage and self esteem to stay on a diet for more than 2 months, because the weigh in's would just bring me down. I have found my middle ground. I have found ways to be healthier and to lose pounds, and if not pounds inches. It is just so amazing. It takes so much courage to get out there and do this, to realize that something has to give. To accept you for yourself. I've reflected a lot over the last several months on myself in many ways. And as spring is now in full swing I see myself in a much different light. Here's the NSV's that I could not do this time last year:
1) I can run up a flight of stairs, in fact several flights.
2) I can lift more than 50 pounds
3) I can walk more than 1 mile, or grocery shop more than 30 minutes and not get tired out
4) I can turn down fast food and sweets
5) I can walk a mile in well less than an hour...down to a 16.1 minute mile now
6) I can run around with my kids, and not feel out of breath 5 minutes in
7) Starting to actually feel proud of myself for a change
8) I can do sit ups and push ups again despite my bad wrists and tailbone
9) I can almost stand on my head for more than 10 seconds lol although this one is more for fun
10) I can wear clothes I haven't worn since before my 6 year old was born!!!
11) My wedding ring is now only snug when I swell up.
12) I feel happier, I want to do more
And that's only some of them. Each little thing adds up. I still have my down days, like wondering if I can get to my goal of under 170 pounds by June 1st or not. I want to be able to wear my size 8 pants that are stashed away by my Anniversary (my wedding anniversary is in October), I'm almost fully in 12's now, down from size 20. Now don't get me wrong each day is a struggle. Each day is a battle of wills, will I turn down that bowl of macaroni for a plate of salad with skinless chicken and light dressing. Will I skip the pork sausage and pork bacon and reach for the turkey versions with a couple eggs where I still feel full just healthier full. Will I actually eat vegetables and fruits today, still not a big fan. I try to go with V8 smoothies for the days I'm just not with it.
Oh another NSV:
13) I love asparagus
14) I really enjoyed the new dish I made yesterday - Chicken Vegetable Stir Fry
- Boneless skinless chicken
- Vegetable Stir Fry
- a little bit of Teriyaki Sauce
I've never ate those vegetables before, it would always make my stomach churn. I am improving one way or another. I also printed out the 100 Reasons to Work out Today. I love those, a bunch don't apply to me, but a bunch does. And it makes me smile. And if I'm feeling extra down, somehow some way my spark family cheers me up. I just read your blogs or your posts. Or look at some photos, and remember we are all in this together. Even when I do finally reach my goal weight, I can't see myself ever leaving the wonderful support group I have here. Just knowing that there are real people facing a lot of the same challenges, and succeeding makes me want to step it up and push myself to do better as well.
Yesterday I took a lighter day, still managed to get over 8,000 steps in as well. But instead of working on the house. I did some laundry and some dishes, but otherwise we helped our neighbor with his flooded basement. He had like 2-3 feet worth of water, so his downstairs kitchen, the stuff they had it storage, paperwork and clothes and what not were all damaged. Come to find out his sump pump broke and possibly well too. So we helped him install a new sump pump, although I got to admit my husband getting sprayed with cold water was quite funny while he was helping him though. And so glad it wasn't me. We also, well my husband also helped him with a bunch of loose shingles on his roof, so no more leaks that way either. Although we let him know he really needs a new roof rather soon. Then last night until about 9pm because it was so nice, we finally cleared most of the wood off the porch. There was a go100 or so pieces that needed to be gone through, and nails pulled. And we got rid of 80% of the pile to be burned, and rest to be used during the remodel of that house. It is so nice to be able to fix up a house that you are buying when it is literally next door to you.
Well off to do a long list hopefully today, or chill and relax with my 2 year old after our walk. Not sure yet. But I know I woke up in a great mood, so I'm hoping it stays.
And what I want to be able to do!!!