Today was a Battle
Thursday, May 02, 2013
As I was getting ready to turn in for the night I realized I hadn't checked in with myself. For those of you who may be following along. you know that I write this mainly for me. This is especially true lately. With the 3o shred, I find that I need this to remind me of where I came from. It has proven helpful as I have embarked on my adventures with level 2. There are days, like today, when I feel like there is no way I can go on. I am tired and sweaty and ready to throw in the towel. Today was rough. I woke up with a large to do list and thought I really don't need this today. I need to eat breakfast, shower, and get on with my day. I fought that down and changed into my workout clothes. I laced up my shoes and hit play on the DVD player. I did the warm up , right until she said"jumping jacks" . I quickly said" that's it...no more". I bent over to grab the remote and that's when my arch nemesis and I came face to face. There was the ugly, heavy, unwanted bulge that has taken to hanging out, with friends, around my middle. I hate that thing. It has been around for a LONG time. The little voice inside reminded me that if I did nothing then so would the bulge. If I was happy with my size, health, and level of daily loathing then by all means push that button. If I want more from life then I needed to jump back in .....literally. So on we went. I got through the first circuit and the strength training in the second circuit and then an ugly word showed up. OBLIQUE TWISTS. No more jumping please. I quit....for a minute. I heard the muffled cheering of my Nemesis and turned it back on. Yuck...I hate this. I struggled through, stopping occasionally until the end. I raised my head and breathed a sigh of relief. I conquered that today. If I failed at everything else, I didn't fail myself at least. I persevered.....for today. Lets hope tomorrow brings renewed energy and resolve.