Thursday, May 02, 2013
A new month means it's time to stop slacking and get things right. I'm determined to pick myself up and fight for this healthy lifestyle that I have been working so hard on. Exercise is not a problem at all, unless I'm exercising too much. Sometimes I think I might be but I try to back off if my body tells me to rest. My weekly exercise routine is usually, step aerobics 1-2x a week, bodycombat 2x, bodypump 2x, CX works 2-3x, running at least 10-15 miles, and having one easy workout day where I usually do a fun workout on my Wii. Yes, I do exercise everyday. Most days I usually get about 90 minutes of gym time and then I use my fitbit to keep me active the rest of the day. My goal is 15000 steps daily and I always aim for more. I love working out and staying active all day. I had a couple months where I was lacking energy and struggling through workouts. I have finally gotten past that. I'm not sure what was wrong but I feel much better.
My biggest problem is nutrition! I'm eating the right stuff. I'm drinking tons of water. I'm getting enough protein and fiber. I love to cook and to bake and I'm always finding healthier ways to do so. My lifestyle change made me actually enjoy cooking. I have always enjoyed baking, but cooking was a struggle. Now all I do is go to SparkRecipes.com and browse all the delicious stuff shared by members. I'm starting to get a really good recipe collection going. So, what am I struggling with? Sometimes I think that I can eat a little extra of this or that because I ran 6 miles that morning. Weekends are really tough. I have designated Sunday as a cheat day, but I keep catching myself cheating on Saturdays. I even have days during the week where I think I can sneak in an extra 100 calories and my body wont notice. The verdict is in on what this is doing to me. When I cheat on my tracker...I'm only cheating myself. I'm not hurting anybody else but me. I must resolve to be more true and faithful to myself and stop sneaking in these extra calories and trying to justify it. I don't have any excuses and I'm making myself unhappy. I'm unhappy when I see a lack of progress. Yes I'm at a healthy weight and I am in great health but I'm out of my maintenance range by about 4 pounds and have not been able to get back there over the past few months. It is discouraging to see a lack of progress. I'm actually terrified of the scale because all I get out of it is bad news. I haven't even weighed myself in a couple weeks because I'm scared.
Things have been discouraging for me lately. I'm going through a rough time because DH and I wanted to have one more baby, but we have been trying since last July. I found out that there is a problem with my hormone levels and I'm working with my midwife about this. I was able to get pregnant with my other two children within 6 months and that was when I was 30 pounds overweight. Now that I'm at a healthy weight, I can't get pregnant. I think it has made it harder to focus on my fitness goals, but sometimes if I focus on those I can push the want for another baby into the back of my mind.
Goals for May:
-Keep up my daily physical activity, but listen to my body if I need to rest.
-Stop cheating myself with my nutrition.
-Keep taking care of myself and not stressing about TTC. It will happen if it's meant to happen and there isn't much more I can do right now.
-Sign up for another race, probably a 10K.