Wednesday, May 01, 2013
Hi Sparkfriends, I hope today finds you well. Do you all mind if I indulge in a bit of oversharing? This may well be TMI, so consider yourself warned.
No, seriously. This is probably oversharing to an uncomfortable degree.
Still here? Ok then.
So I went in for a "medical procedure" last week, which is the euphemism I've been using for an exam under anesthesia to figure out what's going on with the gross end of my digestive system. Long story short, back around Thanksgiving I had an "issue" that needed to be lanced, and it never really healed, and then it morphed into an injury that runs clear through from inside to out. Yuck. And as of last week I now possess a bright blue nylon temporary-ish medical piercing which is somehow supposed to help the whole thing heal enough for me to go in for ANOTHER surgery to try to actually repair the damn thing.
So between the discomfort of my newfound piece of body art and the displeasure of having to use Metamucil and some other related pills, I literally gained five pounds in 24 hours (yay bloating!) and have not been able to fit into real pants since last Tuesday. I can't really run or do strenuous bodyweight exercises, my stomach is all upset, and it has been very hard to stay positive while dealing with such a stupid, indelicate medical problem.
I'm having a hard time finding the mental energy to spend on Healthy Things when I feel so blah. Even the first farmers' market of the season didn't cheer me up, and our farmers' markets ALWAYS make me happy! Phoey. I just want to get back to where I was a year or two ago, when I was loving my body and it was loving me back.
Sleep, wholesome food, lots of walking. Gotta (re)start somewhere, right?
*edit* to add the funniest/saddest anecdote from the past week: I have a fancy scale that records goal weights for up to four people, automatically detects who has stepped onto the scale, and lets you know how far you have to go. I stepped onto it the day after my surgery, cuz I felt so bloated, and I had gained SO much weight, SO quickly, that my scale didn't recognize me as me! It got all confused, popped up a different user number, and asked if I wanted to set a goal. Funny/sad. Aw yeah.