Abyss Walls are Slippery
Wednesday, May 01, 2013
To all my wonderfully supportive SparkFriends,
I'm sorry I haven't logged in to lift you up when you're down, offer a quick hello, or keep up with your goals. I have no excuses for not returning your wonderful and constant encouragement, but will tell you the short story below.
I recognize, and have for some time now (and probably even blogged about it in the past) that I turn to food to deal with my emotions. I just read an article about how "even though food doesn't solve the problems, it at least makes me forget them for a while." That is, for the while it takes for you to grow out of your jeans, to recognize your shirts are too tight, that your aches and pains have returned because weight and poor eating habits have returned.
So to soothe your self-loathing, you eat...
I need to find a healthier way for me to deal with stress and disappointment instead of wishing i had an endless supply of ice cream to numb the pain.
I can't say I'm solidly back on the wagon, but I did have a stellar day of eating and had a bit of activity. My goal at this point it just to climb out of the abyss and away from its edge. I have 31 days until my DirtyGirl 5K, which I haven't been training for.
I promise to do my best to log in every day this month of May and return the encouragement you've always given me.
Thank you for always being there.