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Wednesday, May 01, 2013

I've been having a major battle with the depression lately, and it's gotten worse. There was the health crisis (which seems to have subsided). There's the situation with trying to find a good home for Frank and all the emotion around that.

Then, just to frost my cake, today the boss called me into her office. Friday we were supposed to turn in our timecards, and we have to punch in our off time on a special system on our phones. I clocked my days off on Friday morning, but by Friday evening it still hadn't registered. I emailed my timecard to my boss with a note telling her what had happened. Monday morning she told me, "punch in your off time immediately and tell me when you're done. " I told her again what had happened, and that I'd entered the time again so she wouldn't be surprised if it showed up double. Well, it seems that the time never registered and she said that "I should have let her know," so I'm only getting a four-day paycheck this pay period -- with rent due. Fortunately a friend has offered me a (very) short-term loan if I need it. The missing pay will be on the check for the 17th, but that does me no good for the rent. I'm watching for my tax refund to hit the bank and praying it comes before Friday.

And just to torment me a little more, Friday night I got my first serious kiss in 22 years -- only I wasn't awake at the time and he wasn't actually there. I woke up rather deflated.

I am dying to put a straw in a bottle of Bushmill's right now.

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    I am so sorry for all the troubles you are having right now. I hope that everything gets straighten out for you soon.
    1659 days ago
    all the best
    1660 days ago
    emoticon to hear that things are not going well - my thoughts are with you emoticon
    1660 days ago
    A dream kiss is better than no kiss at all!

    Sorry you've been feeling down lately. emoticon
    1660 days ago
    I'm sorry for all your troubles.

    Sending you lots of emoticon
    1660 days ago
    1660 days ago
    Wow, you seem to have a lot of spark friends that care about you!!! That is such a blessing!!!

    There are better ways than the Bushmills - alcohol actually makes depression worse.

    Is there sunshine in your "neck of the woods"?
    The sun and nature can make such a difference in your mood.

    Hope you feel better soon!

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    1660 days ago
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    1660 days ago
    emoticon Hope that money comes in soon.
    1661 days ago
    1661 days ago
    You are certainly under a lot of stress, and then the money is the icing on the cake.
    1661 days ago
    Hang in there. Some people are just poor bosses. emoticon
    1661 days ago
    that's a horrible day, but as I tell my girls, "this too shall pass" hang in there Mary. emoticon
    1661 days ago
    GEE.............SHE had NO TROUBLE "REAMING" YOU for a mistake you made on Fri., so OBVIOUSLY YOU WERE THERE!
    TOO BAD you can't RETURN THE FAVOR & REAM HER; bc it seems SHE made a mistake! Sadly, the "double standard" applies here. I hope it gets straightened out in the end. have to WAIT for YOUR money! Life can be so UNFAIR!

    I hope you find a nice place for your son. That is NOT an EASY decision; but it seems like a necessary one. You are doing the right thing & if ANYBODY tells you different, I think you already know what to tell them!
    1661 days ago
  • SNIC23
    I hope everything works out for you and that you don't have to resort to Bushmills through a straw. (Doesn't that stuff eat plastic?)

    Things will be better before you know it and you'll be over this nasty hump in no time.

    Hang in there!

    1661 days ago
  • LIS193
    1661 days ago
    Keep that straw out of your mouth... sipping with a straw produces more wrinkles. Seriously, these are serious issues, but I know that deep in your heart is a light of love so big, it shines all the way here to the midwest.
    1661 days ago
    It seems like work is stacked against you. emoticon
    1661 days ago
  • KARENE10
    1661 days ago
    Wow does the story about your timecard sound familiar. Is it just me or has anybody else noticed that more and more responsibility is being put on employees while at the same time they are given less and less resources to solve issues.

    Your bosses response to what happened doesn't seem at all appropriate to me. I feel they should have recognized that you DID try to communicate the issue to them. The fact that they didn't realize that you already had does not speak well for them.

    Wishing you all the best! I know how hard it can be!

    1661 days ago
    I'm with Dusty! Don't let this go! Stay positive emoticon
    1661 days ago
  • .DUSTY.
    So sorry that happened to you!
    1661 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/3/2013 9:22:17 PM
    That sucks about the pay, but your boss is horrible to you. Stay positive.
    1661 days ago
    Wow. It sounds like in the future you are going to have to do double checking and babysitting management to make sure IN ADVANCE that they have your information, or this will happen again. And it looks like you can't afford to have that happen. What a bother.

    Sometimes life just sucks. I am sorry. But it will get better, I promise. It might not be right quick though.

    Your friend came through, you WILL be getting paid, eventually, and you will find the right place for Frank.

    Hang in there!
    1661 days ago
    I have to clock in by phone, too! I hate it because then I also have to double check it every day on a computer to make sure it actually registered. Sometimes it doesn't... and then you have to get a member of management to fix it, which of course they don't like doing. Usually with us, it is because our time is off by half a minute or more. We are either five minutes early or late. Since we clock in on someone else's phone, it's very, very easy to do... we get there and they are on their own phone talking, or they want to talk to us and we look rude if we take their phone and call in. We can't use our own phones to call in. In any case, it happens all the time!

    I totally understand your frustration! Money is tight and it would be nice to just work a nice 9-5 office job where they just trusted you to be there. But it seems those days are long, long, gone.
    1661 days ago
    stop for a few minutes my friend sit down and just breathe just relax..somwtimes those things creep in on us and we just need to turn off what we can't do anything about at all
    here's a big 999hug0000 for you friend
    the lady maryput on your favvorite irish shanties and relax!!

    1661 days ago
  • BEFIT017
    I think you're doing the best thing for Frank, before it does become an issue for you & your ex. Get him sttled now while you both are still able.

    Sorry about your pay but at least your friend came through for you. How AWESOME is THAT?

    I hope everything works out for ya! emoticon
    1661 days ago
    Sounds like the dream was a nice one.
    1661 days ago
    ((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))) Life can be so unfair.

    Glad you didn't put the straw in the Bushmills, but hope you DID find another way to just relax. You have lots of responsibilities and the emotional decisions that have to be made for your son's care, well, that is just plain draining in and of itself. Let alone everything added in on top.

    Hugs and prayers.
    1662 days ago
    I'm so very sorry! I hope things turn around for you soon.
    1662 days ago
    So sorry. It must be something in the air...had mother and sister in law problems that escalated today and dug into some frozen yogurt. Seems stupid now but already ate it.
    1662 days ago
    That sucks that you are not getting paid for a days work!

    Hope things get better for you soon :)

    Sending you positive thoughts and prayers,,,, emoticon
    1662 days ago
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