Wednesday, May 01, 2013
So let's start with the bad. First if all, I stepped on the scale today and although I shouldn't be surprised, I found that I have gained back all the weight I lost plus more! Okay so not a pretty sight on the scale this morning. I did take my measurements and pics for this month. I needed to make the fresh start and although I said that I was going to do that a while back, I didn't really take things seriously.
I keep thinking about some comments that I had gotten from someone about how they were waiting for me to truly commit. I will admit that at first those comments made me mad but then I realized that they were right. I wasn't committed at all. In fact, I was checked out. I was going through some if the motions but I wasn't really putting my heart into it. That is exactly why I am seeing the numbers that I am seeing right now. I have no one to blame but myself.
When I looked into the mirror before I took my measurements, I was very disturbed by what or should I say who I saw. The person looking back at me looked old and run down. That person looked so sad and very fat! I didn't and don't want to see her any more!
The good, yes there is some, I have set my goals for May! I haven't jumped out there to try to lose 50 pounds in a month! I have a goal to lose 10 pounds in May. It is totally doable for me and I am determined to reach that goal! I also have a goal of 10 minutes of exercise and 10 glasses of water daily. These are also doable.
I feel like I have my plan and I will working to focus on each part one day at a time. Having a plan laid out feels so good. Okay I know that I have had plans in the past but I have written this down and posted it on my motivation wall. I see it throughout the day. I am also going to post them on the fridge as a reminder to what the goal plan is.
Now about Wolverine. I got back from Oregon and then a couple days later, I woke up with scratches on my thigh like Wolverine was trying to make a snack of my leg! That is probably the whole reason I have snapped out of my stupor and put it in gear! Lol. When Wolverine comes to visit, it is time to get off your butt and get to work!
On May 8th I will be celebrating my 1 year Sparkversary and although the first year didn't pan out the way I thought, I am glad I am here. I did a journal entry the other day looking back over the past year. I accomplished many things. I focused on all the positive things that I did and left the negative in the past. I was so surprised at all the things I did accomplish. Those are the things that I am hanging on to. I can say that one of the big things that I have accomplished and that I am very proud of is the fact that I am still here. I still stuck around no matter what was happening good or bad. I might not have been as visible to everyone but I was here. I plan to stick around for a long time so get used to seeing me around! Lol
So I have lots of work to do and a long road to travel but I have broken it down into short "trips"and I am plotting the journey on my "map". I am looking forward to my 2nd year with SP and what I will accomplish this time.
It is a new month and a great time to get back on track. If you have been struggling, jump in along with me and keep Wolverine away! Lol
More later! Much love!!!