Wednesday, May 01, 2013
I'm no longer consistent with my goal amount and pace but I still managed to lose 6.4 pounds this month. I wasn't sure it was going to happen. I hit a plateau, my eating turned to junk again, my energy level was bottomed and I found myself battling depression. Miraculously my weight is still going downward despite it all.
Only 3.2 pounds away from 200 and I hope to make it there in one week. After that I will feel like I have accomplished the impossible because I honestly can't remember the last time I weighed anything that started with 1--.
I've stepped up my exercise again getting back some of my vigor that was lacking. I'm eating mostly vegetarian, getting most of my carbs from legumes and going Atkins style days when I do eat meat. I've been having serious problems with having no desire whatsoever to eat grains and my energy level is reflecting my imbalance. While I'm back in a place mentally to push myself my body is not in balance with my efforts.
I need to step back and evaluate everything that went "wrong" this month and was less than helpful to my journey and make some changes and better plans for this month. I really need to focus on complete nutrition and getting some of the things I'm lacking that are causing cramps, muscle spasms, and very nasty brittle, peeling fingernails. I've also self-diagnosed and treated myself for my almost debilitating depressive and lethargic mood trying a daily regime of panax ginseng and St. John's wort (as much as some people frown would frown upon that I can't afford medical care...end of story). If for no other reason than a placebo effect it seems to be lifting the dreariness after taking them for a week and a half now. Sometimes all that matters is having something to believe in to make yourself better.
Well, I've got to fit in a workout before DH and I go anywhere today and so far I'm not making it far past my cozy chair and fuzzy pj pants.