Wednesday, May 01, 2013
Woohoo! Lost 2 lbs today :)
I'm happy with myself. This is no easy feat, especially when your body is craving all this bad junk you used to put into it! All eating really is is a habit. I used to have bad habits, now I'm making good habits. I was inspired by another member yesterday who posted their non-food reward plan on their sparkpage. I made my own and it is definitely really motivating. I get to have a manicure pretty soon once I hit 139 to celebrate being out of the 140s :)
I have my singing final exam today in a few hours. I'm not as nervous as I usual am for these things, but I guess it's because I'm used to performing more. I'm hoping that I don't think about what my teachers are thinking. I want to sing simply to create something beautiful and to express myself. God gave me a unique voice and such an amazing power to be able to create beauty and express my own uniqueness through singing. So I'd like to focus more on that instead of having the "perfect" performance. Because even the singers at the Met will tell you...there is never such thing.
AND I may not be completely satisfied with my body right now, but I'm not going to let that stop me from being proud of myself and putting myself out there in my performance today. I know that I am doing something about it, that I am still beautiful, and that no one is thinking that I am "overweight" while they are looking and listening to me.
Let's do this!!