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Stress (thinking out loud, venting I think)

Wednesday, May 01, 2013

I'm at my limit for stress. I've said this before and found out that I actually could in fact, handle more than I thought, but I would really rather not test the limit further. This is one of those times when I am totally okay with not being stronger than I thought I was.

The oldest - Still no word from his employer about them accepting him back or terminating him. I've started keeping my eyes open for help wanted signs though, just in case.

The middle kid - Still no word as to when he needs to be picked up from school. It's a small window. It is the last day of finals, which could be he 13th - 15th. My husband will have to be the one doing the trip to get him, but he needs to put in for the day off to do so.

The budget is taking hit after hit and I've gotten to the point of not knowing how to fill the gaps. I'm looking at getting rid of Spark Coach and changing the level of my gym membership. I've toyed with that for a while anyway. In the 5 years I've been there, I have yet to use any of the benefits at my level, none of the additional benefits in any case. I've never brought a guest (who wants to go to the gym at 4am ?), I don't tan (in a closet, coffin, or outside), and I've never used any gym except my "home" gym. That doesn't save me much because I get reimbursed from my health insurance for most of it anyway. It's actually my unofficial Christmas fund since I usually submit the claim in October and get the check in November. But it would be half as much a month and I'd get back 100%. As things stand, my actual cost of membership, ends up running about $50/year.

PT appointment tomorrow and I'm going to ask to be pushed harder. We'll see how that goes. I had to buy shorts for the appointment. I don't own any. Well, I do now. It was nice to be able to buy my old size and actually fit in them! I didn't believe it at first. I brought 4 or 5 different pairs in the dressing room, all in medium because that is what I've been wearing (tightly) when I last tried on clothes to buy. So having to put them back and get *my* size, was a thrill.
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    emoticon vent away....
    1781 days ago
    Why does life always have to be so hard? I could get very philosophical about the entire subject but I guess I'll leave it to say that I sympathize with all that you have going on. Life throws us a lot of curves, but somehow we usually manage to muddle through and keep going. Stay strong and try to focus on family and friends and all the wonderful plans you have for the summer in your "tin can" When we trust the value of what is most important the rest seems to work itself out. Keep smiling emoticon
    1781 days ago
    I don't suppose the school could accommodate your husband coming after work? That seems unreasonable. Could you call for an exception?

    Good idea to be looking our for "help wanteds." You never know.

    Difficult choices you are being faced with. emoticon
    1782 days ago
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