2 years? Really?
Wednesday, May 01, 2013
A little healthier in some ways. In others ways, not so much.
I am perpetually losing the same 20 pounds it seems. I would say "This time I'm committed" but you've read that before.
I did the Whole 30 program last fall and loved it. I felt great. I added things back, as they recommend. Then the holidays. Then I got really, really busy.
I gained it all back and started to feel like crap.
So yesterday, I started it again. Not for the weight loss but because it made me feel great. I was sleeping well. My skin looked amazing. It really worked for me.
I'm using Spark because it's the easiest tracker to use and I want to see how adjusting what I eat-- not just how much- makes a difference. It will also hold me accountable. I have late night eating issues. Writing it down will help.
I would say something seems different this time, but I've said it before.
I would say this time I'm definitely going to do it, but I've said that before, too.
The difference this time is that I got to remember what feeling good was-- and that is my motivation. The Whole 30 truly gave me energy. Dieting does not. I feel like the last 10 years I've been perpetually trying to starve myself and it hasn't worked.
I went to Weight Watchers. What a joke for me. I was stunned that people didn't know that fast food was bad for you. Or drinking 7 sodas a day was bad.
I drink about 4 sodas A YEAR.
And fast food-- maybe once a month.
Not three times a day.
Carbs don't seem to be my friend-- not that I'm going on some crazy low carb freak diet.
Sugar is my enemy. It really screws up my hunger patterns. Not because of the calories- because of the slippery slope it starts with cravings.
So I'm tracking to see if I'm right-- if it really is the WHAT and not the HOW MUCH-- and then eventually monitoring the how much to see if that helps.
But mainly, I want to feel good.
And if the smallest is a size 14, I'm fine with that.
But feeling like crap is not an option.
So here I go again...