Wednesday, May 01, 2013
Oh my gosh does time FLY!!
Well SparkFriends, I'm a little disappointed to report that one aspect of my progress - weight loss (or heck, even maintenance! when did I consistently start weighing over 130??) - has been going miserably. I think there was a period a month ago where I did see the scale go down a bit, but for the most part I'm still hovering around 134-137 lb range, despite several good binge-free streaks. In fact, I had a 6 day one which I broke on Sunday, but I'm back on track and today is binge-free day 2 so far! Anyway I'm not really sure what's up with this. Trying to think of variables...well, my activity level has still been good (running, hiking, yoga, climbing, surfing, biking...tons of fun stuff all mixed up!), maybe I've been getting a little less sleep, I did start a new birth control pill a month ago...
Anyway, I'm trying not to get too hung up on it, but I think I need some new small goals for May just to change things up; I'm getting frustrated with just having the single goal fairly difficult goal of trying not to binge. I used to try and track small daily goals, but I have fallen off doing that, so I'm going to just try to do it again for a month here. This also means that I should be checking in here and posting a blog entry every day for the month of May (exceptions for May 9-12 when I will be away camping again).
May Daily Goals
1. At least one mindful meal a day.
This means totally focusing just on eating, the moment, the taste, the texture, the colors of my meal, and not eating while browsing the internet or trying to get more work done. This is actually pretty difficult for me since I'm always feeling behind and want to try to be "efficient" by eating while doing something else, so that's why I'm making my goal to just have one mindful meal a day. That will be hard enough.
2. Food log.
This means I write down what I eat in a notebook (easier than any electronic means for me), preferably before I eat it, which should help a little with planning. It doesn't have to be super detailed; I'm just going to write down what it is, and approximate quantities. This should also help me with mindfulness.
And that's it. I'm going to give this a try, since these are two of my old goals that I was never too good at following through with, but I think a lot of it had to do with accountability. Here I hope that seeing my (public) posts every day will keep me on track.
Let me end this on a positive note saying that this past week has generally been pretty good...I've been doing better overcoming my initial anxiety with getting work done and procrastinating less. Yesterday I was so grateful that I had this moment where I felt like I was pushing hard at work and school with so much to do, but felt excited, determined, and motivated by the challenge rather than my usual overwhelmed, scared, inadequate and shut-down. It was just a moment but I like to think that maybe it is a sign that my practice of positive thinking and countering negative self-talk is taking hold, even if just in the tinest way...