Tuesday, April 30, 2013
About 2 hours ago, I realized that my phone calendar has not been syncing with my online calendar, and when I updated my phone yesterday, my calendar disappeared. So, I am struck with a fear I haven't felt in a very long time... I'm going to be late... I'm going to forget an appointment... I'm going to miss something!!! How do I get it back? How do I undo the phone update? Would that even bring back my calendar? This panic makes me want to eat... and drink beer (my favorite!)... and wallow in my pity! but I'm not going to do that. I looked at my calories left for the day and had a snack that fit in. I have an appointment with my trainer in the morning, and it's a weigh-in day... I can't throw in the towel with only HOURS until my weigh-in! So, I have some iced tea... and I have a list of chores to get done before I go to bed tonight... that'll keep me busy... as I begin to get back into my groove, I calm down... I start thinking... what was on my calendar that could be sooooo important that if I'm late, my world will end? or if I miss it, life just won't go on... NOTHING! While I'm sure there are going to be some unfortunate misses coming up, it's not going to stop me... I'll just pick up wherever that is and move along... I'll call my regular doctors and find out when my appointments are... I'll keep a list of things that come to mind that I know should be coming up... This is almost a blessing... I'm feeling very anxious, but at the same time, really FREE!!! How nice it would be if my calendar wasn't booked... at least not with all those "work" kind of appointments... I need to schedule more time to relax and play! I don't want to live my life so seriously... I want more freedom! I can get everything done that is necessary and at the same time have fun. I can. I know it. It really is just that simple and I'm going to do it... starting now!